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好喘。

2012-01-29T02:51:00.001+08:00

就突然觉得呼吸好累哦。

如果能不呼吸那该有多好。什么都不用烦。(咳)

说真的, 我觉得自己活着没什么用。什么都不会, 什么都帮不上忙。根本就是烂人一个。只会让别人为我操心、难过、生气。

好久没跑步了。应该找一天好好发泄。

好了, 就写到这。基本上, 这是一个没什么意义的 po. (笑)

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原则

2012-01-27T15:47:00.002+08:00

STUPID.
i have my own principles. isn't it obvious that i'll feel bad (-.-)
don't expect me to go out with others today.

kns, stupid hair salon. 初一& 二 also over already. why your haircut price still haven go back to the original price? my hair long likea ghost liao can?! seriously need a haircut badly.
bad hair day everyday is damn annoying.

'mad situations which drives everyone crazy. '
a.n.g.s.t.y. m.o.o.d. o.n
i know im damn petty. but yea, heck.

HANDWRITING TEST

2012-01-24T14:38:00.000+08:00

HAHA! did the handwriting test once again out of boredom! If youre interested, you can try it too! @ http://www.handwritingwizard.com

This personality profile is based on the writing of Vigi Koh created at the website: Handwriting Wizard.com - Handwriting University's Official automated personality report creator based on standardized basic personality traits as taught through Handwriting University's Certification Level Program.

Vigi uses judgment to make decisions. She is ruled by her head, not her heart. She is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see her as unemotional. She does have emotions but has no need to express them. She is withdrawn into herself and enjoys being alone.
The circumstances when Vigi does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets her mad enough to tell her off, she will not be sorry about it later. She puts a mark in her mind when someone angers her. She keeps track of these marks and when she hits that last mark she will let them know they have gone too far. She is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All her conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. She is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, she has poise.
Vigi will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. She would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, she will show her love by the things she does rather than by the things she says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because she feels her mate should already know. The only exception to this is if she has logically concluded that it is best for her mate to hear her express her love verbally.
Vigi is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to her, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of her sound judgment. She will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. She will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and she will always ask "Is this best for me?"
People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Vigi doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.
Vigi is talkative. She enjoys talking and socializing. She may talk when there is absolutely nothing important to say. She enjoys speaking.
Vigi is a cumulative and procedural thinker. She likes to have all the facts before making a decision. She thinks or creates much like a brick mason, stacking fact upon fact. Her thought pattern or the conclusion will not be complete until the last fact is in place. Like that brick wall, Vigi learns faster through visual demonstration than through quick verbal instructions. Once she has learned new material, and understood it, she won't forget.
Vigi is a methodical thinker, therefore she is able to build things and come up with new ideas. In an argument, she often loses to rapid thinking people because she is thinking thirty minutes later about what she should have said. These people often are very booksmart, but can be out-gunned in a rapid fire verbal debate.
She may learn new ideas at a slower pace than other "less detailed" people, but once she gets it, she can handle repetition. Some people hate jobs with too much repetition, she can handle it better than most.
Vigi is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Vigi basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.
Vigi is having a lack of physical energy at the time this handwriting was written. If someone has very short and straight down lower loops (like in the y or g), this indicates this person's physical drive (activity or sex) is compromised. Usually, this indicates the person simply isn't interested in getting too physical right now. This could be a temporary mood which often happens when the body is sick and is healing. Or, this could be a result of an emotional or physical issue that is effecting Vigi 's energy level and interest in sex. Sex doesn't seem to be a priority at the moment.
Something is incomplete in Vigi's life. She feels frustration relating to her physical needs and desires. Somewhere in her life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Vigi's sexual needs.
Vigi has a very unusual lower zone y loop. If the data input is correct, Vigi's y or g is large and opens up to the left side of the page. This is not a common trait, but the implications are very interesting. As you begin to study handwriting analysis, you will learn any loop indicates imagination. This lower loop indicates the amount of imagination Vigi has regarding sex and physical things. So, her lower zone stroke is large, so her sexual imagination is large and open. Furthermore, because the loop is incomplete and extends to the left, this indicates a particular fascination with certain aspects of sexuality that have not been fulfilled, yet. In a nutshell, Vigi is open to some very new ideas sexually and is willing to try anything once.
For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Vigi has no white space or margins on a typical sheet of paper. Vigi fills up every last inch on the top, right, left, and bottom. Hmmm. If this is true, then Vigi has a very aggressive personality toward others and quite frankly lacks a bit of respect for the space and property of other people. I would be surprised if Vigi just comes into someone's home and helps herself to a drink in the refrigerator. This can be both an obnoxious personality trait and it can be assertive and effective in getting what you want. There isn't much fear of getting in trouble here, Vigi finds plenty of reasons to break the rules and get in trouble. (Okay, perhaps when she was younger, not anymore?) Basically, people with no margins are a handful.

OKAY, IM STARTING TO THINK THAT THIS SHIT DOESNT MAKE MUCH SENSE.

大年初二

2012-01-24T02:46:00.001+08:00

"It just shows how insignificant I am. "

伤心/难过/害怕的时候是有谁能让我依靠呢?
找个人谈心事不难。但他信得过吗?

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新年快乐!

2012-01-23T18:56:00.001+08:00

新的一年到了!!!!!
大家记得要把去年不愉快的事情给忘掉! 然后留住一些美好的回忆.
也千万不要忘了去年所做过的错误. 要从错误中学习, 不要一错再错.
今年龙年, Malcolm 12岁了！ALL THE BEST FOR PSLE（dont think you'll see this. but still!) !!

the truth is you've been my pillar of support.

2012-01-19T00:42:00.000+08:00

Its really REALLY difficult to find someone I can talk to.
I've tried, i really did. I tried to open up myself to someone. But like always, it all ends with disappointments.
again and again, it fails and fail. Its just not easy to trust anyone.
(-.-) cant be bothered any more.

anyway, i got my results last Monday. not really what i expected. was kinda disappointed with what i got. but anyway, i am eligible for the courses i want to get into. the only problem now is that i cant decide whether i want Engineering or Aviation(similar to business) .

After i got my results, went straight for interview. and work starts immediately the next day.
Have been working at Giordano for the past week and will continue working there till CNY eve.
going for another job interview in the morning for Air Show job and another flyer job which offers higher pay than my current job.
But i feel kinda bad leaving Giordano because they really need staff there + the in charge and the colleagues there all very nice and friendly.
&i enjoy working in the service line also. especially when i see customers happy, it'll keep me smiling for the whole day :) Although it may be quite boring at times when there is no customers. However, overall, this is not a bad job to do.

I saw a really loving old couple at work today. they've grown so old but they still hold on to each other tightly. i even overheard the husband saying, "Anything will do, i'll let you choose. Anyway, its for you to see, not me." something like that. I heard something similar from a younger couple too.
I wonder if i'll experience that day when i grow old. :/ (kinda tough ah)

i've been really busy recently, havent been going out with my friends. meeting up with bro real soon to have a drink or two. It has been really long since we last met. need to do some catching up.

oright, thats all. kept a long post short.
Au Revoir!

p/s：“一次又一次的失望会带来不幸的绝望。”

胡思乱想

2012-01-05T00:43:00.002+08:00

"希望在我伤心流泪的时候有个人在我身边告诉我一切都会没事的。"
这次我希望会不一样。希望我不必再一个人面对, 一个人躲在一旁哭泣。

Olevel results are coming out next monday. gg.com
have a bad feeling that im gonna fuck up my damn Olevels.
hope it'll turn out to be alright. *cross-fingers*

(damn low now)

prettaye random

2012-01-04T02:08:00.002+08:00

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Time to find a lil time in a cozy corner with a cup of mocha+my ipod to chillax and write in my lil diary.
Got a long looooonnnngggggg story to write.

Bonne nuit! :B

p/s: im gonna get a ukulele! \(^_^)/ i promise i'll treat it like my husband and master it!

In the middle of chalet.

2012-01-02T02:05:00.001+08:00

Im a nuisance and I know it.

Sorry for annoying. Was just trying to be concern.

First post of 2012 !

2012-01-01T17:09:00.000+08:00

firstly, HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
apparently, i wanted to do all my long overdue posts ytd. but this effing com doing want to on for me.
so yea, dragged all the overdue posts to the next year. :/
should i start with the latest or the oldest?
maybe the latest :)

So ytd was New Years Eve. nope, i didnt go out. friends called me out for countdown, but i didnt succumb to temptation and followed them out. :)
Initially, i thought that we would be having celebration+countdown at my aunt's house. but... nah.
on a regular saturday, i'd make a trip down to my grandmother's place, which was exactly what i did ytd.
it has been quite a while since i had visited my grandmother(the last time was on the day of OLIP).
besides that, i realised that i havent sat down to have dinner with my family for a long LONG LOOOONNNNNGGGGG time.
ytd was a great chance to have a great family time! hahaha. (except for the fact that the boy & the men in the house had their own countdown)
i was home the whole day till evening where i head down to grandmother's place for dinner.
dinner at PASIR PANJANG! LOL! BBQ food again! i doubt i'll ever recover from my cough(i had chompchomp the day before).
after dinner, back to grandmother's place.
ROACH INVASION! A ROACH THAT COULD FLY SENT MY AUNT RUNNING! HAHAHA!
of course, the ALMIGHTY VIGIKOH killed it! HAHA.
then grandma started sorting out goodies given by the 咖啡厅(teochew) people. she said that only people who go for morning exercise, would get all these goodies.
so i told her that she should exercise more so that i'll have more food! HAHAHA.(obviously i was joking and it was suppose to mean that she should exercise more.)
&HENCE, MY MUM KICKED ME IN THE ASS ! (T_T)
made my grandma laugh with my vigorous dancing moves. haha. she no voice then laugh until she want to cry. damn cute!
went home to countdown and practically screamed HAPPYNEWYEAR across the block. haha
stupid brother boasted that he lead a bunch of strangers to shout HAPPYNEWYEAR with him at Marina.
lastly, a movie to end my night with :)

On the 2nd last day of 2011, i went out with my qinaideANGIEjiejie. :) went shopping at City plaza. Had 3 job interviews before hand. which was kinda fucked up. at least the new year shopping made me less angsty! :) Apparently, i only got 2 dress which i thought i would be able to use it even if i go school or for some random gathering with my friends.

and these are my buys of $36 :)

Got to City Plaza, got some stupid fire alarm! i thought it was quite serious when they called everyone to evacuate. i was dumb enough and walked out of the building. so, it just happens to be a fire drill (-.-)
okay, so from City Plaza, we walked and walked and walked. just to realise that The Bloshop at City Plaza closed down :( and my tribal dress no more! (T_T) x2! then walk walk walk, chio Orange dress $39.90 and that checkered shirt is $20! friggin ex! (T_T) x3! next dress i saw was super chio but i got this damn issue with the dress. it is bare back! tsk! very if i buy, 不实际。because cant use a lot. wear to school people will think i very slutty.
walk walk walk, hungry (T_T)x4!!!! had dinner and ordered hokkien mee just to realise the thai stall got sell Mango sticky rice (T_T)x5! but then Angie's Tom yam soup really damn nice! haha! \(^_^)/ x1. but! popiah that day not nice (T_T) x6!
we continued walking and got bored of that place. we decided to head down bugis instead. just as we were leaving, this $10 board was staring at me! of course, being cheapos we went to look at it.

dig dig dig and Angie told me she got this dress. i thought it is nice & since is cheap! so i just buy ah. haha. \(^_^)/ x2!

went to bugis and walk walk walk walk walk. so many people walk until damn pekchek. but thens, there is frigging and lot of new shops! i swear! okay, maybe its because i hvent been there for a very long time. then again, we saw this chio checkered shirt. but its damn ex too! (T_T)x7!
saw a few potential new year clothes but a lot all damn $$$ and i believe that those are the clothes i would be able to get 2 for 50RM in KSL(psycho-ed my mum to bring me there next week. haha.)
finally, at 9pm, we decided to get the clothes we set our minds on.

AND I GOT THIS FOR $26!

IDK WHY IT LOOKS SO HORRIBLE IN THE PICTURE BUT I SWEAR IT LOOKS GOOD!
saw similar ones for just $10+ but the quality really damn far off! this is similar to the one i saw at Citypaza too (the one i have issue with its bare back) haha. anyway, this is chio but still a lil $$$.
got another dress, \(^_^)/ x3! went to have supper later at 糖水先。not bad sia. as in seriously not bad. people who have deserts with me will know that i like to order Almond paste. which is exactly what i ordered there. its not exactly not watery. can feel the water content but its not to the extend where we get sick and tired of the bland taste. in fact its not even bland la! its nice! so \(^_^)/ x4!
waited for the damn 133 for damn long!!!!!! annoying much. bus down to Nex for Fairprice! guess who we saw on the bus? CHENGHOCK! HAHA! surprised that he still can remember me. and he got wave to us leh. haha. not bad not bad. bought eggs at Fairprice while Angie went to find her pocky!
haha. no stock sia!!!! a lot of places no stock! damn sad!
anyway, thats it for the day :)

6 days before New year was X'mas! had a wonderful X'mas countdown with Mumbo peeps + Bro + YY.
Met KT, CK and S right before the X'mas dinner to get x'mas exchange gifts. was suppose to go down MBS for meepok gathering but didnt because i felt that it was kinda rush and it would be kinda bad to miss the mumbo dinner. because there is already very little people having dinner there.(idk why but i still feel fucking guilty not going down meepok gathering) i mean, either decision i make, i'll still feel guilty. okay, emo things aside.
Dinner at Italian restaurant followed by party at TJ's house! played Mrt and waited for time to pass for us to countdown. LOL . once the countdown starts, the whole house was filled with joy&laughter. which makes me wonder how the hell can TJ's Dad sleep so calmly in his room?
after the long singing, it was time for gift exchange! got a frigging MEN'S BRIEF! MY GOD!
lucky, LUCKY, TJ took my gift. but i felt kinda bad because who the hell would use that pair of MEN'S THONGS! Haha!
since my gift got taken away, i get to choose another gift. I GOT TJ'S paper cutter. haha!
actually i dont mind the paper cutter. i would still use it but just not that very often.
then A took my present! so i picked again, i took a gift prepared by MX. body shampoo from body shop. okay la, not bad! at least i can still use it. :)
Played running man after gift exchange which lasted till 4.30am! haha! got catcher and groups that are suppose to find their respective cards and accomplish the mission. i had to find CLUBS! we were a bunch of clubbers! HAHAHA!
anyway, i really felt like i was in a detective game where we ducked and run and hide. damn funny! Haha. i rolled and ran across each vehicle. from wall to wall. and stayed low to find cards.
but why, why the hell all the cards i find all Hearts, not Clubs?! Pft.
after running man was drinking game. played it for the first time. it was awesome! Haha! :)
Mac breakfast at Yew Tee point after drinking game. home after that.
now, you may be thinking where are the presents i received. haha. Big thanks to all those who gave me presents :) sorry if i didnt write a card to you or anything of sort, i really dont know what to write.

(left to right to bottom) Keru, Tianjun, Anna, Meixuan, Fuyong, Glenn, EdwinG, Desmond

from Samuel & Chunkiat! \(^_^)/

you think that this is the end of the gift? you're damn wrong! haha!

IT WAS FILLED WITH ALL THESE AND A BUNCH OF NEWSPAPERS TO MAKE IT LOOK PUFFY! HAHA!

8 Popsicle, 10 Oreo, 26 fizzy cola sweets!

haha! so far i havent even touched a single of the goodies yet. yes, because im afraid i would cough non-stop. :)

On the 23 December, it was BAND INVESTITURE! so my family went to KSL to shop without me :(
but, i had lotsa fun back at band! \(^_^)/ i spent a total of almost $200 on all the gifts!!! i had to buy for my section juniors which consist of 6 members! and i had to buy gifts for 2 Drum Majors + 3 Quarter Masters! after band investiture, i swear i pok already! those are the gifts for all the juniors.
Since its so near x'mas, i never forget to get gifts for my beloved sectionmates! Sengjun, Clarence and Xiaoli! :) Percussion would never be so lively without them \(^_^)/
i still remember how the 3 of us got misunderstood during band. and how the whole section danced while the band was playing the song.
i admit we were distracting the whole band. but i believed we lightened up the tense atmosphere and enjoyed ourselves . haha! (cant forget the Mushroom dance)
i wonder if we could still have so much fun if we go back to play. anyway, meet up soon yea?!
everyone was shocked at my sexaye voice. haha! super sexaye but yea, i still managed to make everyone laugh during my speech. it was an impromto speech. which was why it consisted of a lot of rubbish.
This year's band investiture is a lil different because it included a mini concert and there were parents around too. honestly, i felt that the feeling is a lil different and i hate to say this but i dont like to be the one looking at the band play. i want to be the one playing with them! it just feels damn weird sitting down listening to your own band play. but through the performance, i felt that there was a lack of togetherness. the bonded feeling . idk if it is me or the rest felt it too.
at that point of time(maybe even till now), i couldn't believe that im actually, really, out of chongboonsymphonicband already. i frigging graduated from secondary school! like wtf! its damn fast la. miss band like #%^%&^&^ !
it was also a farewell for Mr Wong. it was his last day in CBSB, because there'll be a new conductor next year. :/ to say that i didnt feel a tinge of sadness would mean that im lying. because in some way or another, he really had helped us. i still thank you for what you've taught us :)
Papa Chiang didnt show up that day and idk why. but i really miss him. like seriously, i really do. SYF2009 brought me to love him like my own father and so did he treat all of us like his very own.
will definitely remember and love Papa Chiang <3
after the mini concert, i met with the section to give out gifts and the band took photos. (i really wonder when will all the sec4s all come back together again like that (T_T) )
*missin all the fun we had together* i wanted to write cards for everyone but i really didnt have the time.
anyways, the photos from band investiture! (i wont upload all. they're all on fb! just the ones i like <3)

My lover/darling/honey/qinaide/sis/bff/etc. WENDYTAY

the girl i know since sec1! those days we used to hang out together, those days we hated each other.
haha. our story is too long to be told in a blog post and too deep to be expressed in words.
love ya! <3

YOOHOO~ SHEMINLUKE!!! <3

we've been in the same class, same band for 4 friggin years! but the funny thing is we only got like really close in sec4. haha. despite being close only in the last year of sec4, we helped each other a lot and you were my pillar throughout the year! HTHT on the way home, sneaked food for tuition etc.
all those times we spent together was pure enjoyment! probably because we're both of the same horoscope. haha!

my qinaide Xiaoli! haha. she damn cute i tell you.

she was one of the troubles i had to deal with throughout my entire 4years. however, without her, i wouldn't be as patient as i am right now. she trained up my patience level! and taught me how to treat people with Autism with respect :) although she can get really annoying some times, she is a pleasure to be with. <3

YES! THIS IS MS BAOZ!

HAHA! i remembered the look on her face when she realised that i saved her number on my phone as Ms Baoz! damn cute! as you can see, WE ARE OF THE SAME HEIGHT! HAHAHA!
my chinese teacher and my band teacher. i see her more like a mother than a teacher. i'd share with her my thoughts and she'd understand. even if its against the rules. she nags like a mother, talks like a mother and scolds like a mother. but she loves everyone like a mother, understands you like a mother and cares like a mother. if i were to choose, id nominate her as the best teacher in CBSS.
(FYI, all band teachers are super awesome teachers! they are the best teachers in the school.)

my troublemaker! RAYNERLIM

super annoying, super guailan, super naughty fella. haha! and those are his characteristics in Sec1. but now, its all different. this fella has changed a lot since sec1. its a fact that everyone would recognise. for those who dont know him, might think that he super GL. but they would never have thought that this fella can be really sweet and caring. REALLY! no joke! treated him like my very own lil brother. he'd helped me a lot and protected me like im his sister(eventhough im older than him!) haha. its the magic from the bonds we share in band :) i still remember how i crazily stood up for him when he got scolded. despite knowing that he was in the wrong.

super crazy junior! CHARMAINESIA

haha! this girl is born crazy! she may seem oh-so-quiet but that is because you havent seen how wild she can get. crazy girl was the first person who made me feel like im damn old. (fyi-she called me grandmother! and listed me as one on fb! haha) however, she can be really caring too. and she is actually a really nice junior to teach :) you have to learn to be more strong(like mentally) okay?! dont let other people bully you! haha. i think she got my genes on being damn protective of the section. (oops)

DEAREST JUNIOR, CLORENCE! <3

hello my fav junior!!!! i love you like you're my own lil sis. i've taught and groomed you and decided many things for you in CBSS. hopefully, you really enjoyed what i've given you. but through these 3 years, i regretted not paying more attention to you. i felt like i've neglected you in one way or another. sorry :( nevertheless, do remember the good things that you learnt from band and not the bad ones. always stay crazy!!!

BAND MAJOR, IRINA <3

HELLO MY FRIEND FOR 7YEARS! i've known you since P3! same CCA! haha! even went for Angklung SYF together. i still remember how you took care of me during the Cameron Highland trip in our last year of ZHPS. haha. i was really blur and all but you took care of all my blur-ness. Never did we expect each other to get into the CCA and became great partners. i know i've been really playful and you wanted things to be more discipline, but i failed to do that. im sorry :( but i've really enjoyed all the times we had together. especially how you like to laugh and my craziness and how we played together on the day of SYF. super mega fun! Haha. \(^_^)/ will always remember you! <3

and thats all for Band investiture!

walao! still have so much to blog about. haven update about Camp Mumbo and Olip!!!!!
i guess i'll have to do it some other day. gonna go for New year celebration now!

TOODLES~!!!
BYE!!! AU REVOIR!!!!

p/s: sorry for the looooooonnnnnggggg post! TEEHEE~
p/s/s: stupid VALLIANGOH called me a cowboy for sending him YOOHOO~ (I WILL NOT FORGET THIS)

WEEOHWEE~

2011-12-09T23:22:00.001+08:00

okay, happy thought happy thoughts! spam happy thoughts!

hmm... so, i went Batam with my dad and bro on Wednesday. (finally, one more item on my tasklist down)
as usual, Dad bought hell-lot from there. shoes and clothes and socks. but!!! this time, he got 3 sets of formal clothes!!!!!!! HAHA! so unlike him. its not like i havent seen him in formal clothes before la.
its just that... the last time he bought formal clothes was 3 years ago! and he was complaining about how hot and uncomfortable it is(like small kid sia. haha! my Dad damn cute).
i think he one shot buy 3 sets for new year and my cousin's wedding(which is super far away, in mid june!)

My Brother bought 2 t-shirt and a super nice "jacket"! didn't know my brother could look so good :P
the "jacket" is quite pricey, but i think its worth the money. because he really looked stunning!
the only bad thing bout it is that its not easy to match. as in... not all jeans go with that "jacket" .
his 2 shirts looked great too! (why?) BECAUSE I PICKED THEM. TEEHEE~ hahaha!

I got myself a pair of Airwalk shoes and a GREEN(yes! ITS GREEN!) converse shirt! haha. not bad la. at least managed to find something. i wanted to get the orange pair of Airwalk shoes. that pair super-prettaye!!! but dont have my size! (T_T)
Matahari only left with size 6, Sport Station only have stocks that are size 8 and bigger. ALL BUT NO SIZE 7. ohwell~ not fated to have that pair of shoes.
had a really bad dinner at a restaurant in Batam Centre. sucks ttm but had no choice because we were rushing for the last ferry.
&the KFC there damn cheap!!!!!! 62000rupiah for 2rice+2chicken+1musicalbum+(something else i cannot remember) ! which is only less than S$10!
they also have the molten cake thingy that singapore dont have. but, not nice la. so if you're going, dont buy it.

thats all for Batam.

caught breaking dawn with KT & LX ytd.

super abrupt ending. &if they never explain to me the story, i wouldn't know what is happening through half the movie. hahaha.
havent really been a Twilight fan. in my point of view, people should just watch Vampire Diaries instead of Twilight. Much nicer.
&this KT, in the movie theater keep calling Bella 'HORNY BITCH' ! siao sia this woman. (HAHA)

guess where this is!

yes! it is KT'S HOUSE! HAHAHAHA! too bored, no where to go. so crashed into her house.
camwhored for a while. took a cover and crazy videos. haha!
"helped" her with her Speech. apparently, i became the bride in her wedding speech. hahaha!
i swear this JY is damn dirty. after band still dont want to bathe! sit there play audi until 10+ then decided to bathe. suay suay her shampoo in her mum's room and mum is not home. hhaha! dirty fella.
initial plan: KT do speech, LX and me help. + i do campfile drawing & LX help.
in the end: KT using FB + do speech +singing, me stoning + singing, LX playing audi. (HAHAHA)
this LX play audi that time damn funny(oops)!
ran for the last 315 bus home. i ran for nothing because that was actually not the last bus. there was like 5 more buses till last bus. waste my energy(-.-)

oright oright, so Olip is tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! + tomorrow need to go visit 奶奶 in the morning!
&im still not asleep! #hosehliao (OHYA! I STILL HAVEN PACK BAG FOR TOMORROW! DIE! )
but honestly, im quite excited for Olip eh! 1st time go, starting to have butterflies in my stomach. hahahahahahahhahahahahaha!
okay okay okay!
i should go conserve my energy and sleep now!

BONNE NUIT!

ps: Batam photos will be added to this post soon. :)

Fool

2011-12-05T22:11:00.001+08:00

Acting crazy and jumping up and down, behaving like a fool 24/7.
when you behave likea a fool, no one will take you seriously. people won't give a fuck bout you.
because they know you're just another idiot behaving wildly on the streets.
but what they dont know is that behaving likea fool really helps drive the troubles away.
you'd hear more laughter than criticisms. hearing people laugh and looking at the smiles you brought on their faces. some how, it makes me feel happier(although there may be times where it would seem like an insult).
However, this would just be a moment of joy. soon, all the troubles would race back to you.

"不要想太多..."
yea, im trying. but its not easy. especially when you have to face it everyday.
and to not think of it, is almost impossible.
at some point on Sunday, things got worse. it seems like the whole scene has returned to how it was like 8years ago. it has been a long time, but i havent forgot. that atmosphere, that look, that voice. :/

Facing phone problems recently too. fucked up phone, make me kanchiong. i thought i'd lose all my sms, lucky never!
And that meeting with LMN was more than what i'd expected it to be. It was worse, far worse. Lucky i ran off with an excuse.
Was stuck there at the place for 2.5hours! can't believe i could actually tahan that kind of person and behavior for 2.5hours. swear i'd never go out with LMN ever again.
idk why, but i think LMN has this thing against my house or something. keep using my house to threaten me. wtf sia, you dont even know where my house it la!
&please, i know you're not from a co-ed or neighbourhood school. but do you have to make it sound so bad. its not like you;re any better la.
Maybe you dont know, or none of your friends have told you. YOU HAVE NO RESPECT FOR GIRLS.
seriously wonder if you do it to everyone. lucky i wasn't so dumb. if not i would have died there.

realise i havent posted anything happy recently. :/
sorry, angsty mood nowadays.

Au Revoir.

feign a smile &hoping everything will be alright.

2011-11-29T23:39:00.001+08:00

I feign my smile, my laughter, my happiness. To call them mine is even imitating the ownership deceptively.

source: http://lensestothesoul.tumblr.com/

You're all fooled.

Nuisance

2011-11-29T22:50:00.001+08:00

maybe, thats like one of my weakness/badpoint
i dont know why, but i think im a total nuisance.
it just comes naturally to me when i trust someone or when i want to escape from something.
i've been making a lot of noise recently &have been being super annoying. idk whats wrong with me and why im ding this. but im just doing it(wtf? ikr.)
yes, and now i have the habit of going out every single day. i just... dont want to stay home. so, its either im alone outside or i'll just run out and look for people.
idk how to explain this, but the way i look for people is not normal.
the way i see it, i think i've been a total nuisance.

i swear i feel frigging lost now. like i have no where to go and idk what to do. besides that, the thought of me getting my Olevel results in January is freaking me out.
i feel like an idiot now because i know my results will not turn out to be what i expected it to be. effing disappointed in myself. (now, i feel more lost than ever. where would i go if i do not get into Aviation?)
i dont even clearly know where the fuck i want to go!
engineering? i dont even know whether im up for it.
Business is boring & super competitive.
Science? i think i'll die.
IT? not very interested.
still got what? (-.-) idk la! i only know im damn screwed.
i hope i wont have to get back my results ever! (dream on!)

there's a risk im taking tomorrow. i seriously dont know what will happen, i guess i'll just gamble with my fate&future.
hopefully, it won't be bad. (fuck! am i even doing the right thing? im damn confused.)
but aiya, fuck it la. im just gonna go. if i dont go, LMN will just keep pressuring me.
anyway, i doubt anyone will fly down to help me tomorrow if something happens to me (because i've been really mean recently. &im turning into a total bitch).
ohwell~

Au Revoir
(désolé for the messy post.)

James Morrison - You Make It Real

2011-11-25T00:17:00.000+08:00

'怦' 然

2011-11-24T22:20:00.001+08:00

有人关心你, 真的很好.
有人陪着你熬夜, 真好.
有人分担你的烦恼, 真好.
有人愿意和你一起渡过难关, 真好.
有人在你受伤疼痛的时候陪着你, 真好.
可惜.... 这样的人很少.

《我可能不会爱你》

2011-11-18T18:22:00.001+08:00

这部戏超吊！现在只做到第9集。(T_T)
还得等到星期一才能看第10集。靠！好久喔！
看着看着觉得自己其实很差劲。也不知道为什么，就突然很想一个人静一静。

我好像变了很多。变得一位什么事都藏`在心里的人，一个令克一个人负担一切也不想把别人拖下水。也因为自己任性的性格所以只要是我任定了一件事/一个选择我就不会轻易改变。
我讨厌让大家为我担心，所以什么都不说什么都埋在心里。
因此有很多事我从未对任何人说过，所以可不可以请你不要，不要再给我身边的人带来不便了好吗？我真的真的没有对任何人说什么。

现在的我独自一人上战场，面对人生。一人对抗人生所带给我的挑战。
请大家程我现在很勇敢的时候把一切的不爽炸来。程现在什么都不顺利的时期，冲着我来。
好让我一次过伤心。看着我伤心，或许也能让你开心点.

好啦，就写到这。
AU REVOIR!

11/11/11 beautiful day, NOT.

2011-11-11T00:42:00.001+08:00

After O's i'll be back to the days where i have no direction as to what i want to do.
I think i better start finding a job real soon to stop me from thinking too much.
something that would keep me busy and tie me down so i wont feel like a total slacker/bitch/slut/asshole/whatevernamesyouhaveinmind .

Pft. 11/11/11, no date.
maybe i have, a date with Physics paper I. (-.-)
followed by shopping with S. Yx. Mj.
hopefully i get to meet K.E.L. today. got too much stuff bottling up recently. need to pour some out :(

11/11/11 nonsensical shit still running through my mind. :/
stupid L never text me back. (quite expected. but yea, don't want to give a damn)
YOU'RE ALL THE SAME! ALL ANIMALS!
i swear if i continue to have this same mentality, i'm gonna stay single ma whole life!
but yea, it isn't that bad either.

Ohwell, off to sleep.
Bonne nuit!

Confession #08

2011-11-09T04:22:00.003+08:00

Some times when i ask someone out for ice cream.
It actually means im not feeling very good right now &i hope someone could be by my side.

以前要的不是这种以后

2011-11-09T03:41:00.000+08:00

想念只会带来更多的伤痛。
短痛不如长痛，趁早收手。免得到最后你伤的最痛。
可是到现在，我都还在矛盾。矛盾我做的决定是否正确。

成今不敢往前冲，如今也一样。
到底什么时候才学会勇敢？（真没用）
说实在，我厌倦被别人欺骗。更痛恨那些骗我的人。
虽然我决定相信你说的全都是事实，可是我还能怎样？
默默地为你祈祷，只需求老天会帮助你带给你力量。

Sorry.

2011-11-08T11:20:00.004+08:00

48 hours of isolation begins now.
stop looking for me. don't contact me.

Mumbo meeting #2

2011-11-07T13:02:00.000+08:00

WARNING : LENGTHY POST!

MEEEPOOOOK~

(left-right, top-bottom) Hueyming; Zhihui; Daniel; Vigikoh; Adeline; Munkit; Keru; Chunhong; Edwin

okay, whatever, zi-high. haha!
woke up early yesterday to go for Mumbo meeting at Bras Basar.
Swear me and KT reached super early! so, for the idk how many times, I AM EARLY FOR A MEETING! hahahahha!
KT bought hot chocolate for me for breakfast <3
i brought bread for her and i. eventually, being someone who dont have breakfast in the morning, i didn't have mine(&had to hold on to this damn bread until at night then i throw. dumb or dumb?).
around 11am , almost everyone reached . so we gathered in SMU.
(however, not the all meepokeys were present . so... no free meepok! (T_T) )

Objective of the day, go through day 2 activities. Get to know how to play and see how it can be improved, so on and so forth.
Activity #1
Go through SMU to play games.
Game 01: Drawing without touching the marker.
cracked our brains to find the best strategy. used ruffia(IDK HOW TO SPELL LA!) string tie the marker then draw a FLOWER, wrote CLOVER and CAMP MUMBO'11 .
had a lil extra time so wanted to write Edwin's name, EH. BUT! IT WAS SUPER FAIL.
end product dont know what sai. then we realise we have a super outstanding 'A' in the middle of the mahjong paper. Hahaha! that was the word we wrote for "write-test".
okay, yada yada~ we set the next picture to be drawn by the next group, A DOG! HAHA!

Game 02: Stand up without using hands.
attempt to scare game master, FAIL! haha! never mind, it was super fun though.
at first, use hands. then in pairs, groups of 3, 4, 5 and the whole group together!
it is definitely easier that without supporting each other by our hands.
So, we tried using arms to support each other instead of hand. we locked arms and tried.
in 2, 3, 4, 5 and whole group. WAIT! GOT A TINNY WINNY PROBLEM!
2 of our group members cant stand up! O.O?
of course, as super good and caring group members, we helped each other. and managed to complete the task given.
\(^_^)/ GO MEEPOK~!

Game 03: Twister!

(all caught in awkward positions!)
omg omg omg omg! SO LONG NEVER PLAY THIS GAME ALREADY! REALLY!
still remember pushing my brother out of the mat as a kid. hahaha! (hopefully he doesn't remember this)
"hands on prime numbers," "foot on even numbers," "foot on friend's knee!" "hands on friend's waist"
haha! really epic, couldn't keep my balance. BUT YAY! I managed to pull through, no need to do forfeit.

Game 04: create cheer and skit
we had to look around for word cards hidden. i found 3/18! not bad okay? Haha!(self-praise seh)
The words were: 初一 /师父 /美女 /Willy Wonka /Mumbo /Meepok /Meesiam /Laksa /Zi Char /Maihum /tissue paper /irritating uncle /GOAL! /GO! /toothless KOPITIAM /air-con...(cannot remember the rest la! think i robot ah? tsk tsk)
created a skit, super funny!!! hahaha! i become Willy Wonka and did that stupid laugh.
Our cheer is super cool okay?! why? because Meepok create one la! walao! this also need to ask.
(>_<) I SWEAR I SOUND LIKE IM TALKING TO MYSELF BUT I DONT CARE!!!
Had debrief and we set off for LUNCH!

MEEPOKEYS EATING MEEPOK FOR LUNCH! HAHA! THANK YOU KERU FOR THE MEEPOK! 爱死你了! XOXO
er... probably because i hungry until not hungry(okay this sentence doesnt make sense. but you all geddit right?) thats why i didn't have much appetite and couldn't finish my food. (-.-)
but we managed to finish the 2 bowls of deserts EDWIN HENG TREAT US. HEHEHE~ THANK YOU!

Activity #2, MUMBOpoly (around the urban areas)
Game 1: throw dice -> to Raffles City
challenge was to get
: 2 lipstick marks on tissue paper
: 2 business cards
: 3 plastic bags
: 4 signatures
went into Robinson, the guys "open numbers' to decide who would get the 2 lipstick marks for the ladies at the counter.
Chunhong got it! haha! super funny! i think it was kinda awkward at that moment as well.
but we still got it!! then it was my turn. i went up to these 2 businessman for a signature.
then one ANGMOH, walao! he dont understand what i said!!! until Edwin used the american accent to talk to him! @#$%^&^%@ stupid angmoh! kill you then you know!
got business cards from the men standing outside smoking. Munkit had to hold on to one of the cigarettes and i caught i photo of it!! (okay, actually it really isnt a big deal and now, i dont find it funny. BUT AT THAT MOMENT I THOUGHT IT WAS DAMN FUNNY LEH! WALAO! I MUST BE MAD)

Game 2: choose 3 tallest members.
Edwin, Daniel and Peilynn. & we had to use our stuff to accumulate to their total height. haha
in the end, we hack care and tried to make the longest line possible. I swear we were the centre of attention at that moment. still got people take photo some more!(sekali we go on stomp. HAHA)
Chunhong had to go after the activity. HE HAD TO BALLERINA TURN TO THE MRT STATION! HAHA! okay la, actually just outside Raffles City Mc'donalds until he got in only.
damn funny but i bet it was a lil awkward for him too. (>_<)

Game 3: to Asian Civilisation ... (something... i couldn't remember. haha)
apparently, we all ballerina turn our way there! from the youngest! Hahaha!
kns! i 2nd youngest in the group ytd. but nevermind la. haha. quite fun also.
we stopped halfway and had to change from ballerina turn to singing cheers. damn tiring leh! really!
then, played Jacob's ladder there. super fast! i likey!
took photos with the 2 statues nearby the Cavendesh Bridge.
and had JUMP SHOT ON THE BRIDGE. I SWEAR THE WHOLE BRIDGE WAS SHAKING! HAHA! had many failed attempts. but we still did it in the end! \(^_^)/
toilet/water break then off to the next activity

Game 4: sheltered bridge near Esplanade.
once we got there, shout cheer! caught the whole crowd's attention!
then Laksa and Zichar was there too!
took photos with them on the slope!
ran and i was slipping down! haha! held on to Edwin's leg which was super hairy, i swear! and Hueyming held on to mine. Sorry i was sliding down!! i tried to stay still okay???
cam-whore all the way. haha! i slide down(i forgot what i did) and Tianjin was laughing at me! haha! whatever la! who cares right?
climbed up the tall TALL wall to take photo. very dangerous you know?!!! if you fall back, you'll die because its super high and the water depth is damn low.
next, we had to complete our task! to teach a group of people our cheer.
we picked the group of foreigners because they were very enthu when we first came and cheered.
so, we taught them the 'Dum-dum-diddy-diddy' song. had lotsa fun ourselves. haha!

Game 5: to the subway! actually its just the empty area near Esplanade where many people practice dance there.
played the pass message game. damn hard leh! all the msg are tongue twisters.
then competed with Laksa. haha! chaos manszx.
Laksa lost and had to do forfeit set by us. which is to do a "flash mob"
means whole group walked together among some random strangers then suddenly "AAAAHHH!!! *everyone duck down* " hahaha!
super funny! in the end, Laksa, Zichar and Meepok together with some committee members went to Marina square and do. DAMN FUNNY! we go do near the guy giving out flyer outside restaurant.
HE JITAO FACEPALM HIMSELF.HAHAHAHA! next was the 2 people from burgerking making delivery. super mean, but still, VERY FUNNY! then got people call us siao/ questioned what the hell we were doing. haha!
(OHYA! I SAW BILLYWONG WHEN I WAS THERE! he was with his parents and grandparents, i think. i wonder how they would react if they knew i was gonna do something crazy.)

all the games ended and we were all on our way to Singapore Flyer to meet Meesiam(whom we didn't meet at all along the journey.)
sang all the way there with KT and new friends from mumbo. haha
actually, most of the people there are very nice & friendly! (okay, maybe because its only my 2nd meeting. so i still find everyone there nice)
at flyer, we went to some open area and did the "Hey-banja-Billy-banja" cheer(I HAVE BEEN DOING THIS SINCE P5! &JUST USED IT AS MY GROUP CHEER PERFORMANCE DURING SEC3 GROWTH CAMP!). HAHA! this shows how long a camp cheer can last .
then we gathered at another area to wait for meesiam, cheered more, had fun!
then DINNER! Korean BBQ @bugis! paid $25 for something totally not worth it. i ate food that cost barely $5! okay, maybe its because i cant cook :P

majority left after dinner. while a couple of use decided to kisiao the whole night away and go for karaoke. that was my initial plan. butttttttt!!!!!!!! Daddy dont let me go K. okay, daddy, you good! never mind. I GO HOME! so, i did went home and started throwing tantrums. hahaha!
okay, whatever. i no mood to blog already.

I LOOK FORWARD TO MUMBO CAMP! (thinking of those little kids are making me insane! HAHA)

Lastly, i love this girl. \(^_^)/ <3

(okay, we both look super unglam here! we should take more pictures together yo!!!)

BONNE NUIT, AU REVOIR!

p/s: photo credits to Daniel and KT.
: unglam video posted online (T_T)
: post is edited&continued

累

2011-11-05T00:22:00.002+08:00

All my major papers down!!! YES! left chinese, physics paper 1 and chemistry paper 1.
so fast till Olevel end. really need to find something to spend my time on(eg. Mumbo camp). down want to waste my holidays like that. gonna try to complete my wishlist on my sidebar.
Besides i cant slow down my pace and stay quiet. i will 胡思乱想！:/

Did a lot of thinking/reflecting today. looking back at the past. SYF'09, Metier, camps...
What i've been through these few years. Was it really worth remembering?
Will i really miss secondary school?
i dont know, i really dont know.
Recently, i get scared for no reason(okay, maybe there is. but still... )
There are so many things that shouldn't be happening. All this wasnt in my plan.
(omg! i swear i dont know wtf i'm blabbering now) I guess im just tired, really really tired.
I was fine this morning after my paper. but idk why, since the moment we went separate ways, and went home. I just felt like i've lost all feelings and emotions. It was as if i was floating.

You know, there are times where you really want to be alone. Like really alone with no one else next to you.
But sometimes, it is at these moments when you hope someone would sit by your side and wouldn't mind listening to you rant and cry.

So many things happened recently. Honestly, its really hard to move on.
&once again, you all went out. without me. nope, nobody even bothered to mention it to me. not at all. its okay, we're going to meet for the last few times already. i tahan. can one VIGIKOH must maintain.
People, "nothing to do? go out with friends lo." but i look around. then i realise there really isnt anyone i can turn to. how pathetic.

okay, this is a post that makes no sense.
Au Revoir

Disappointed

2011-10-29T00:55:00.000+08:00

English down EMath down. 5 more subjects; 10 more papers to go.
and what have i done today? nothing!
fml! fuck, seriously. wtf am i doing?
VIGIKOH! maintain maintain! don't waver! one more week and all the important papers are down!
TAHAN!
I know its impossible. Im losing hope. but, i havent put in my best yet!
(T_T) must get 10 and below. if not, i really dont know where to go.

as expected, they all left. why am i doing this even when i know all this will happen?
i think im as dumb as fuck. really.
"when are you going to stop?" i always ask myself. but i dont seem to have an exact answer.
well well, never mind. stupid and dumb things aside.
i shall just hold on to whats here for me now.

Au revoir, gonna go do some physics.

蕭敬騰怎麼說我不愛你完整版MV

2011-10-26T01:34:00.000+08:00

-

2011-10-24T20:10:00.001+08:00

一切都是我自己自找的。

可是事到如今我想不出比这更好的方法。

One subject down. 6 more to go. JIAYOU !

Last Day Of School

2011-10-13T17:49:00.004+08:00

YES! I'M FINALLY OUT OF HELL!

Today is the day. The day i've been longing for 4 years!
4 years of misery.
4 years of crap.
4 years of unhappiness.
4 years of hard work.
4 years of betrayal.
4 years of being thrown aside.
4 years of being someone who never stood out.
4 years of being behind someone else.
4 years of toleration.
4 years of trying to hide myself.
and the list goes on...

i never forgot how i hated this school. i never love, not even like this school. just look at the list above! i've had enough. sick and tired.
FINALLY! here i am! i'm done with the last day of school! (i swear it feels like i've unloaded an enormous stone)

if you've been reading my blog since day one, you should know this is definitely not the first time i've complained about this fucking school. yes, there might be no point ranting and ranting and ranting. which is why i learnt to pick up and let go of my emotions.
coming into this school was a big mistake from the beginning. knowing the people in this school was a bigger mistake. the best choice i made in my 4 years of Chongboon life was to join band.
Maybe its because of the tight schedule we always have, we were able to spot who are those who are still willing to be by our side. maybe this is why i never had many people to rely on(those names barely fill up my 5 fingers).

Nevertheless, i've learnt quite a few things from this school.
- never speak out, stay low
- don't say something when you know you're the only one who agree
- don't stand out
- be mindful of your actions.
- do not attract attention
- behave like what everyone expects you to be.
- always be prepared to be judged
- always be prepared for critisms
- its normal for people to talk behind your backs, even though their in your circle of friends.
(wait, do you even regard this people as friends?)
- people take you for granted.
- pretty and rich people always win.
- poor and ugly people deserve to die.
- almost no one will remember what you did for them.
- hypocrites do exist, even in secondary schools.
this list is never ending..

exactly 11 days to my fucking Olevels. don't know to laugh or cry. not prepared at all.
FML

Au Revoir
p/s: this is not the time to be distracted. 'With sacrifice comes great success.' Bare that in mind and stay on track.

样貌

2011-10-06T18:15:00.002+08:00

样貌对一位女生来说，是非常重要的。
世界就是那么的现实。大家都已外表评断一个人。

小时候，一位很漂亮的女生会被班上的男生围绕着。
但一位不起眼的女子就得眼睁睁看着她暗恋着的男生离她而去。而且还很有可能被别的同学取笑。(-.-)

到了中学，大家都已外表为重。
因为你漂亮就有人缘。
因为你的样貌而跟着你后面走。
但丑女人往往都会被大家排斥，让人看不起。走到哪儿就被别人批评到哪儿。

上班时的女士如果长得不够漂亮，生意就少。尤其是做 sales 的。
最终她们都还是靠着那张脸和嘴 "混" 口饭吃。

事业成立了，结了婚，生了儿女。自以为老公不会在意你的外表。
但谁知道哪一天，你的老公会突然提出想和你离婚的理念。
而理由就是。。。因为你老了，丑了... 变得越来越像黄脸婆。

这千真万确的事实，让许多人受苦。
残忍的社会，也以心狠手辣的心态，把世上丑陋的人都给淘汰了。
所以说，大家懒归懒，穷归穷。但千万别忘了偶尔为自己打扮打扮。
不然你... 就即将成为这无情无义的社会的下一个目标。

Au Revoir.
p/s: 这应该是看完《真心请按两次铃》第一集的感触吧。

Its October!

2011-10-03T18:34:00.001+08:00

Hopefully, October will be nice to me.
KX is really nice. but like i've said, strangers will leave sooner or later. oh well...

"Give me a break, i'm really tired. Stop chasing, chasing might lead you to disappointment."

Au Revoir
P/s : I feel like skipping school! not enough time for revision.
: hope people can stop making random guesses!

(sorry for the random post. just felt like i needed to say something)

flyingstrangers~

2011-10-02T22:15:00.004+08:00

"The kicking drive to force myself into full-isolation."

Why i'd prefer to talk to strangers? Strangers i met online?
because they'll leave after talking to you for a few weeks and forget you totally. Needless to say, it includes everything you rambled to them. This way, every secret between us 2 will perish once we don't speak to each other.

- Life of an Olevel student, fucking sucky.

Au Revoir.

2011-09-26T17:51:00.001+08:00

2011-09-26T00:33:00.001+08:00

You wanna know why girls take every little detail seriously?Because we’re scared that maybe, we’re not good enough. We see other girls & think maybe, someone else will take our place. We look through every flaw that we can find. We get insecure. We’re afraid of getting hurt repeatedly. We have trust issues. I don’t know, that’s just how we are. We’re fragile. We’re not something that you should go around playing with & throw away when you’re done. We have feelings too, you know?

双鱼座　Pisces

2011-09-24T18:24:00.001+08:00

spammed watched this . just finish. gonna study now. eh! quite true eh!!!! really!!!! anyway, yea. BYE! \(^_^)/

FOND

2011-09-24T15:58:00.001+08:00

I dont know why people don't like her! i super like her songs!
i've been listening to her songs since primary school! anyway, the above are one of the few songs i really like!
hope you enjoyed it as much as i did!

yesterday was crappy. screwed Chinese paper.
met D he brought his friend along. Apparently, i didnt know who the hell that person was.
But never mind, im friendly! caught Johnny English then... *blah blah. can't be bothered to elaborate*

suppose to be studying the whole evening at KFC. but L and E came to join me after a while.
KFC for dinner -> salted caramel(FORTHEFIRSTTIME!)
okay, salted caramel is nice! but i prefer yogurt. i recommend Salted Caramel and Kahlua. Earl Grey is okay, but theres is smell so similar to shampoo! and ya, theres Horlicks tim tam. which i don't really like because.... HORLICKS SUCK!
Cabbed down to chompchomp to meet K and co.! met a few new people, grabbed Frolick, played games. i wanted to "explode" ytd. but it was a failed attempt. i will never be able to "explode". unless you bring me for buffet.
&ya, when i want to "explode", its normally because somethings bugging me and i need to get it off my back by "exploding". (for those who dont know what exploding means, its eating so much till you get so full you feel like exploding)
yada yada~ and went home.

yesterday sucked! it was crappy!!!!

Au Revoir

:okay, so maybe you weren't there. i just saw your friends. but that was enough to make me retreat to my comfort zone.
some times, i hope you'll just FOND.

Confession #07

2011-09-22T23:56:00.001+08:00

CONFESSION #07 : "I DONT KNOW HOW TO SWIM! "

serious! i really dont know how to swim. float i think maybe can(<-just have to lay still right?)
haha! dont know la. but....
I'VE DECIDED TO PICK UP SWIMMING AFTER Olevels!!!!
why? - so this way i won't have to worry about myself getting drown and i won't need anyone to save me!
i guess its also because i want to prevent some promise from happening...
someone(lets name this person B) promised to save me if i ever drown. B said, no matter where i am, B will pop out immediately once i'm drown(which is insane) and that B will save me personally. which means that no one is to interfere.
Apparently, because i was crazy/insane enough, i believed B. which was why i never thought of learning to swim. But now that i'm sober. i've decided to learn swimming because i know, it'll never happen(wts was i thinking, seriously).
I think B is doing great now(i hope so). So wouldn't it be best if i cont. with this? with all the stuff i've planned. and maybe a little(major) adjustment to how'll end.
Got to learn to adjust myself to changes.

okay, its 30days to O levels.
Au Revoir

p/s: A friend, is someone who would tell you what you've done wrong. They'll give you advises(which may come off annoying) because they're concern. Not because they want to judge you.

MV

2011-09-21T22:26:00.002+08:00

super old, but super good combo! i like!!! <,br/>

S.O.S

2011-09-19T13:08:00.001+08:00

WTF MANSZX! SERIOUSLY, damn worried for mummy and aunts. anyone has any way to contact people over at Nepal please let me know ASAP! write at my tagboard/sms/email/facebook msg/tweet me! fucking news reports making me fucking worried. 19 killed! come on, what makes you think im scared outta the fuck here?been calling her phone for idk how many times already and got disconnected. why the fucking Nepal dont fucking have a better connection there?! FUCK! anyone, any information, any news bout them / situation at Nepal please let me know! wont be able to check while im studying! thanks a lot!

BLACK VEIL BRIDES

2011-09-17T22:03:00.000+08:00

BLACK VEIL BRIDES!!!!!! haha! a band i just got to know of today.
\(^_^)/ I like. i think im weird. you know, girls dont normally go for such song genre.
Well, why want to be the same like most people right? haha.
okay, enough bullshit, lets get to the real bomb.

just downloaded their song! its gonna be in my playlist in no time! i guess when i listen to this on the bus, people will stand further away from me. *ting ting* oright, another unproductive day. shall wake up early tomorrow for some shitty-ass geography. followed my tuition then doing A math and E math papers. hopefully, it'll be a mission accomplish. Au Revoir~

《鸡排英雄》

2011-09-16T14:15:00.001+08:00

yea yea yea, i know i super lag. this movie came out like 10months ago but i just got to know about it.
BUT WA! THIS MOVIE IS DAMN NICE! (er... maybe its because its my kind of movie. haha)
some of the speeches are in 台语 . but fear not! theres always subtitles :)

okay, so... this story revolves around the night market, 888.
it seems like almost every stall holders have their own backgrounds. there were siblings who lost their parents, ex-gamblers, a mother whom her husband walked out on and left her with a child, etc etc.
people working at the night market are like a family, they take care of one another and all.
then, theres this bloodeh fucked up gangster who bullies people. he got chased out of the night market together with his "brothers" by 阿华 and people at the night market. then he planned a revenge on the people there.
he paid a company to buy the land and caused many people hurt. &even threatened an old grandmother(this one really damn _l_ )
it so happens that the boss of the company is 阿亮 aka 诸葛亮(you'll know who he is if you watch taiwan comedy) . he used to be part of '888夜市' but left to earn more money. his old lady boss is 阿华's grandmother. although 阿华 and his grandmother do not own a stall there now, he still works at 888夜市 and his like the leader(im not sure if i used the right word) there.
then aiya!　this boss also a bit gonggong go listen to the gangster's partner. then because of 8billion he... hais! everyone tried really hard to bring the market back, but.... hais hais hais....

GO WATCH YOURSELF LA! IF I SAY TOO MUCH THEN NOT NICE ALREADY!

one thing i really like about this movie is how united those people can be. different people from everywhere , of all age groups, of different backgrounds, etc etc. its really hard to imagine such situations happening in a developing society like Singapore(because it most probably wont). with all the money and development coming in place, character building, being united and loyalty seem to have gone down the drain(look how different you are from Japanese manszx!) .
talk about money, can you imagine how many people out there is willing to betray someone else just to get money? how they can bootlick(like a fucking loser with no dignity) just to get money/jobs?!
from my point of view, this is the kind of society Singapore is turning into.
who cares about integrity, dignity and kindness? i'd say almost no one gives a damn once they are in need of money.
ya, some of you might be thinking, "walao! just movie only, get so emotional for what?"
EXACTLY, ITS A MOVIE! there is a message, a story, a moral, the writer wants to get across the audience. so whats wrong with being a little more emotional?
i think if people should watch such movies and do some reflection on their character. it is because of this movie, some people are reminded of things that they should do and not what they want to do.
okay, getting a little naggy here. im gonna stop.

gonna catch another movie!
&im definitely gonna rewatch this.

Au Revoir!

OFFER 来 ! OFFER 来！

2011-09-15T14:34:00.001+08:00

i swear i sounded like a professional market aunty above! just look at that! LOOK! ^^^

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will be posting more of these stuff if i come across them and think that it is good/notbad.
good stuffs must share right?! hahahaha! ya la! see im so kind! woo~! im awesome!(idc what you think, i am awesome! hahahahaha. wtf)

okay, leavin home soon for some discussion group at bestway building. wish me luck oright?
scared i dont catch any balls there though. because this #retarded day is affecting my antennae's receiver! HAHA! OKAY! CRAP. HAVEN EVEN BATHE YET MAN! &I HAVE NO EFFING IDEA WHAT TO WEAR THERE MANZXS! DONT BLAME ME FOR BEING TOO CASUAL!

TOODLES~

2011-09-08T22:37:00.000+08:00

IKR! HIS SO CUTE! (soon to be my screen saver)

I KNOW WHAT YOURE THINKING!!!
"WHY THEY DONT SELL THIS IN SINGAPORE?!!! (T~T)"

(-.-)

2011-09-06T15:26:00.001+08:00

oops! mum's screaming. haha, didn't wash my bowl.
oright, so i've been updating this space pretty frequent recently. i dont know how long this mood of mine will last though.

there's this problem with my eye recently. super itchy! hmmm.... i think its because its dry/dust flew in.
i tried washing it . fail, it gets itchy again.
then i used eye drop! okay, its super irritating! i swear! i think my eye has this thing against the eye drop! like seriously. always fail to drip the eyemo liquid into my eye.
always end having my mum to do it for me. &yea, my dumbass brother laughed at me (T~T)
its not like i never try okay?! it just won't get in !//

okay, so i've got tuition later. honestly, im quite reluctant to go today :(
ohya! im bleeding! my ear is! why??? *pain* (T~T)
(-.-) i forgot what i wanted to blog about.

oh well, Au Revoir!

*after 30 mins or so*
OKAY! i saw this kid on facebook who said , "Papa Jesus be by my side be my side . Be by my family's side. Keep all of us safe"
i don't know why, but i just feel uneasy with what this person has said. so... if papa jesus is really by your family's side, what about the rest of the world. i believe there are another people in other parts of the world who needs him more than you do.
yea yea, fine. im a weird kid , i know. i point of view is always weird and different from others.
which is why most of the time i dont bother explaining myself.

WHATTHEFUG!

2011-09-05T19:31:00.000+08:00

taken during #duriantrip

fug sia! never study today. AGAIN!
YES! BLOODY HELL. WTF MANSZX! NOT MOTIVATED AT ALL!

Today, rotted online with A. shared music/talked about clothes/bout crazy teen on stomp
planned to study at 2pm. but A. intro-ed songs. in the end, continued using.
then arranged with A. to start studying at 6pm.
apparently, we we're both lazy and ended up not moving outta our seats.
i blog shopped and etc. looking for that damn cape top! argh!
can someone tell me where the hell i can get nice knitted cape tops?! i finding online like mad!!!

okay, so... i found this nice blogshop which sells super mega cheap stuff.
http://www.causewaymall.com cheap like hell!!!
many of the clothes there are like less than $10! (hell-yeah!)
but i dont dare buy online ah. later when the clothes come not nice,
i hosei.com(quoted from Y.G.)

walao! never study and i feel effing guilty. but im not doing any shit bout it.
ARGH! FUG FUG FUG FUG FUG FUG!

VIGIKOH YOU REALLY SUPER USELESS&LAZY CAN?!
BETTER START STUDYING OR YOURE GONNA REGRET!

aim: study @ 8pm . (hope i wont fail this time)

yada yada yada

2011-09-05T01:28:00.001+08:00

okay, ytd was super unproductive. laid out all my books and worksheets but didn't touch a shit!

3 days ago, i planned to do some E math notes ytd.
2 days ago, change of plans. gonna complete the load of worksheets and go out with K.E.L for ice cream.
2 days ago(in the evening). CHANGE OF PLANS AGAIN! Mum called me to accompany her to buy baby products for my new cousin. so, its study + shopping w/ mum.

What actually happened ytd...
woke up, lazed on ma bed
> ate breakfast at 12nn (-.-)
> laid out ma books & continue lazing around.
> watched tv
> used com
> more tv
> lunch @5pm (mealtimes are fucked up)
> tv again!
> started playing with my hair.
> more com
> dinner@9pm + com
> bathe
> using com AGAIN(now)

what a ridiculous way to spend my Sunday, considering the fact that my O levels is JUST 50 DAYS AWAY!
wasted day on useless stuff. Can some kind/nasty soul please scold/lecture/nag/hit/beat/whack/kick me?! CALL/REMIND ME CONSTANTLY TO STUDY!!!!
ARGH! THIS STUDYING SHIT IS DRIVING ME BONKERS!

okay okay, yada yada yada. (i think the stupid+mad person fell asleep while i was bathing. oh well.)

Au Revoir! I think imma jog tomorrow morning. &that is IF i am able to wake up. Haha!

p/s: i realise i've been blogging a lot recently. hmm... why? :/

spam 感人 MV

2011-09-04T13:24:00.000+08:00

看了这些影片就一直苦一直哭。我看都快哭疯了。

i post this before! but aiya, dont care la! post again!

Confession #06

2011-09-03T02:51:00.001+08:00

从前,我对自己还满有自信的。
但现在呢? 咳! :/

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Teachers' Day (cont'd)

2011-09-02T15:38:00.002+08:00

HAD A BLAST YESTERDAY! \(^_^)/
It was the best teachers' day among all 4 years of going back to zhps.

i dont know if you guys realise, but the objective of teachers' day is not just to thank those teachers who've taught us. but also to meet and have a little catch up session with our primary schoolmates. :)
It never fails to be one of my best days of the year.

sec 1: most of us came back, we played had hung out after looking for teachers. but it wasn't long . left after an hour or so. but i remember having lotsa fun! haha!
sec 2&3: head back, chat a while with teachers and friends. left school, ate and chat with primary school classmates @ mac. hahaha! i still remember all those crazy stuff that we did. left around 7+ if i hadn't remember wrongly.
sec 4: much lesser people came back as compared to when we were sec 1. (im glad we still have around 1/4 of 6C'07 coming back) . most people from my batch didn't came back though. miss many of em' :(

well, i would say that this is the best teachers' day celebration!
From my class, Cody, Zackary, Alfred, Benson, Ryan, Guan Wei, Julene, Jana, Audrey, Geraldine, Ariena& Brenda came back. after visiting teachers, we went to basketball court and played VAMPIRE ! (haha! its been 3 years every since i played that) if we were to play it in secondary school , we would be receiving unwanted critics-which can be really annoying. whats wrong with playing games, right?!
then, we played TRUTH/DARE . haha. dug out secrets and stuff. super fun! (although there wasn't much to dig out in the beginning cause most of us hasn't really have deep conversations with one another since we left zhps.) but once the fire starts burning, sensitive and "exposing" questions was asked. haha!
3.30pm and security uncle chased us out. we grabbed a little bite from the mama shop we all used to visit frequently in the past. and went down to central mac to have a chat. :) spoke bout studies, bout life, whats happening recently, what we've been up to, preparation for O's, chinese results, how we're coping. Everyone shared a lil something. (we never really talked so deep for so long)
around 7, we went up to lepak at stage. DAMN! EMBARRASSED MYSELF! i kekiang go run up stairs of stage and fell (-.-)
Sat at the rocks where there is the big stairs. (aiya! dont know how to describe. but its at the side of the stage) We continued talking and sharing and laughing. hahaha. theres so much to share!!! Afred, Cody & Benson were crazy! they were climbing and jumping off walls! hahaha! at one point of time , there was this instance where we all wanted to just stay at that moment. where we hoped that time we just stop there and let us sit there till we shiok. because it was definitely an enjoyable moment where we just let everything go and speak out what we want to say. share our feelings and all. talked bout what happened during the past 4 years. sat under the dark sky, everyone lying down, look up above at the moving clouds. = super relaxed.
there was just 1 question posted to everyone , "how's life?" specifically love life. haha! weird and funny indeed. but everyone was willing to share and talk about it. rather awkward in the beginning . but its really interesting to hear what everyone has faced.
Seeing how everyone has grown, become more responsible, independent, sensitive, matured. time can really change someone's attitude. (although they claim that i haven't change much. Haha!)
Had dinner at S11. i shared with Julene a bowl of abalone noodles. so little for $3! totally cheated our money. bought fried fishcake for this Geraldine who didn't want to eat/drink but was forced to by all of us. hahaha! 30mins just to get her eating and drinking. after which cody and julene went home. while i got bbt w/ Benson & Alfred. Wanted to head back home but this 2 crazy guys claimed that they wanted to go nex. siao one! in the end, we went to meet Tianyi at the playground between our block. haha! chat for around 30mins under her block till her brother came down and went home with her. i went home and so did they.

SO, as you can see. i had an AWESOME DAY! &you know whats best about people from zhps? they are very straight forward and 爽快. they dont 拖拖拉拉 and tell you i dont want this i dont want that. they speak out they're mind and tell you immediately when they're not happy with what you're doing. they let you know how they feel . \(^_^)/
I really hate those people who bottle all they're hatred inside and talk about you behind your backs. like seriously, wtf manszx!
anyway, most of us will be graduating from secondary school this year. a hand full of us are probably not gonna come back next year. i hope thats not gonna happen :( because i really treasure my primary school friends.
but some how, its really weird how im not closely attached to my primary school clique. but more of those in 6C'07. - i predict that the same shit is gonna be the same when i graduate from cbss. or maybe , i'll just be close to band and thats all.

oright oright, gonna stop blogging now. so much work to complete today.

OHYA! Lastly,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DADDY & ANGIE! <3

Au Revoir! \(^_^)/
if only yesterday could last forever.

Teachers' Day

2011-09-01T01:37:00.000+08:00

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY TO ALL THE TEACHERS AROUND THE WORLD!!!

I remember those days in primary school when teachers day was a big occasion!
the first period of the day, the school will be super noisy! because everyone will be popping party poppers, cutting cakes, drinking soft drinks, playing pranks on teachers and giving them gifts.
It was awesome and super fun!
But all these fun have disappeared after i entered secondary school. Teachers' Days was never the same.
In fact, it is crappy. dont know what combine hari raya and deepavali together with teacher's day. all perform together.
seriously? wtf manszx. damn screwed.

Its just not the same. it'll never be the same .
i wanna go back tomorrow. i really do. but whose gonna go back with me?
most either end school late or dont wanna go back. (T~T)

okay, as you can see, its super late now. gonna turn in soon.
AU REVOIR!

ohya! i lost my chemistry textbook (T~T)

Boring life.

2011-08-29T22:23:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow's agenda
: wake up early for jogging
: buy breakfast for family
: wash up when reach home
: watch last epi of onthefringe + breakfast
: complete ~~A math worksheet~~ drafting english compo
: grab hwachong&practiceexam chemistry paper, chemistry booklet, tys, A math worksheet.
: Kfc do work while waiting for time to fly pass
: early dinner with Shermin
: tuition
: home
: bathe + tv + pack bag(include tuition notes)
: sleep

look how boring my life is now.
Sadgirl124 (T~T)

P/s: Okay, this is damn retarded. I am blogging this while waiting for bus in amk int . I was sitting on the "seat"...
Bus came > i stood up > all my stuffs were about to fall > I tried to grab on to all my things(imagine hands and legs flying every where just to grab stuff) => made myself look like a fool .
Malu like hell. (T~T)

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《我们都傻》- 杨丞琳

2011-08-29T01:45:00.001+08:00

对，我很自私很霸道。而且非常无理取闹。
但我这么做只是很单纯想要保护自己，不要让自己受伤。
难道这也有错吗？
难道我连保护自己的权利都没有吗？！
幹！我累了，我真的累了。现在的我连保护自己的力气都快要成无了。
就算是在帮我一个忙，让我平静的，无忧无虑的把 O's 考完。
这段时期，我真的不能分心。再分心我的生活就一定垮。
你很清楚这考试对我有多么重要。我希望你能体谅。
我为我这些无礼的行为向大家道歉。对不起。

对不起我不够勇气面对这一切。
对不起我出现在你生命里。
对不起我不会珍惜。
对不起我不会体谅。
对不起我给了你假希望。
对不起我在我三更半夜做恶梦起来的那一瞬间，第一个想到的就是你。
对不起我没有在你最需要我的时候帮助你。
对不起我在你生命里留下了伤痕。
对不起我对你所作的一切。
对不起我太傻。

或许对不起用了太多次已经失去它的意义了。但我只能说我是真的真的想跟你道歉。
信不信随便你。
我也想为这一切挂上个句号，但这不容易。真的很不容易。

“如果我们只是擦肩而过，何必在彼此身上留下伤痕。” - 杨丞琳《我们都傻》

Carefree~

2011-08-28T12:10:00.001+08:00

HK Trip @ The Peak

okay, i super miss my sec 1 days can? so carefree, so much fun. all those band practices, the exchange programmess and the hk trip.
Fun like mad! then i remember everyone chionging for HK trip, then TPJC band fest then SYF! (I remember being scolded like idk how many times for not playing my toms well for Goddess of Victory, 胜利之女神. but all my hardwork payed off when i received praises and our band attained Silver Award, we were improving!)
It all happened so fast. If i were given a chance to go back in time, this would be one of the few moments i'd consider. :)
I still remember being all anxious and nervous for my very first public,hall performance at SP concert all. It was an combined performance with Bukit Merah Secondary. haha! many inside stories. &our dear ClementTia still have FB fan club . HAHAHAHA! super funny! played Hawaii-Five-O and Rumbles. 2 songs that will never forget. Left a super deep impression in my life. haha. i believe almost every performer would remember their first song played, right?

okay okay, enough of reminiscing the old days. needa come back to reality and start studying and give computer up to bro. hahahaha!

Au Revoir! \(^_^)/

STEREO HEARTS~

2011-08-27T14:17:00.000+08:00

"MY HEARTS A STEREO~ IT BEATS FOR YOU SO LISTEN CLOSE~
HEAR MY THOUGHTS IN EVERY NOTE~"

Many come and go as they wish. Some left after they got bored, some i have to leave.

Twitter : RT"@PiscesAreUs: sometimes #pisces ignore you for "no reason" when they harbor guilt about something u may not know about yet" 3 hours ago

Lucky for me, i've always got people there for me.
Ms Baoz once said, "in 20years to come, you'll realise band members are the ones you will still keep in contact with" How true. Kelkel is one such example.
However, it doesn't mean that band members are the only ones who've been there for me, there are others too! \(^_^)/
&lt;3 those who've been there for you! (don't wanna start naming people, because it wouldn't be nice for those who i don't mention. those who've been there for me will know who they are)

Went Nex with C after school, wanted to get gongcha but.. i have to save $$$ for tuition fees (T~T)
met up with K.E.L yesterday too. Home-changed-head down Bishan.
studied at MOS with K first(super unproductive) then E. and L. came and we went to E.'s house. HAHAHA! made a big mess in the kitchen. SPAGHETTI AND MUSHROOM SOUP FOR DINNA! YEA~ Had nice chats then, Ice cream for super! \(^_^)/
everyone rushed out after ice cream just so that i'm able to catch the last train home. hahahaha!
OHYA! E.'s 2nd sis chio leh!!! &amp;i like his room after it has been renovated. study room machiam like library like that. damn shiok! (I guess K. loves E.'s refrigerator! hahahahaha! keep drinking water non-stop) (&gt;_&lt;)

Oright oright, gotta stop blogging and start studying.

Au Revoir!

p/s: I wish A was around too. Its been a long time since we've met.

2011-08-24T19:14:00.000+08:00

Practice exams are finally over!
havent got good sleeps lately. - thanks to exams (T~T)
super sian can. practice exam just ended, 10 more days to prelims. 61 more days to O levels.
gg.com i feel like im falling apart already(you know i wont! haha!)
okay, im just blabbering rubbish here because my stupid funshion cannot load. (T~T)
SIAN SIAN SIAN!

okay, me being super bored now shall share with you how movies and dramas works wonders!
Especially when you're super sad/angry/siao/happy/emotional. and what makes it worse is your computer is in the living room(LIKE MINE!)
when you're sad/feeling any sort of emotion, you might want to show it right? but at the same time you also scared parents or anybody see.
SO USE COMPUTER WATCH DRAMA AND MOVIES IS THE BEST EXCUSE.
just run a drama/movie and cry/swear like nobody's fucking business.
then everyone will just say ,"siao ah?! one show only get so worked up for what"
hahaha! aiya! just let them say la. at least you were able to show a bit of your emotions right?
bottle them inside later too much then volcano erupt how? worse right?!

why does this seem like my excuse for watching more dramas&movies (-.-)
anyway, i would rather watch movie or drama alone. because when i cry over emotional movie/drama scenes, nobody is gonna call me siao(which happens most of the time)

ARGH! DAMN FUNSHION STILL NOT RUNNING! HECKCARE! I GO RESTART COMPUTER!

shall update next time when im free,
Au Revoir! \(^_^)/

p/s : its okay, im fine. you dont have to worry could just be another excuse .

DPA RESULTS

2011-08-19T19:16:00.000+08:00

After all the chunk of crap they blabbered,
"Unfortunately, we regret to inform you that you have not been selected for placement in one of the polytechnics under the DPA exercise."

(T~T) 没有 get through.wasted time and effort . tsk.
BUT AIYA! DONT CARE LA. never get through never get through lo. no big deal.
I'll study hard to get in!
VIGIKOH 加油加油加油！\(^_^)/

its drama time! *kaching! suddenly got bright light shining from all around me*

WHAT A WEEK

2011-08-19T19:04:00.003+08:00

YOOHOO~ I GOT B3 FOR O LEVEL CHINESE! NOT BAD SEH! quite surprised! (>_<)
Of course if get distinction better la. my aim was to get a grade where by i dont have to retake.
well, got B3 , still have to retake. but honestly, im quite satisfied with what i've got.
i havent been scoring well for Chinese since the start of my secondary school years.

so... ya. okay. so this week was like a mad rush. have 2 practice exam papers like.. EVERYDAY!
&we end school at 3.30-4.00pm!
"SERIOUSLY, TEACHERS! WE REALLY HAVE NOT ENOUGH TIME TO STUDY! - YOURS SINCERELY, YOURPOORSTUDENTS" (T~T) damn tiring, really.
stay up till 1-2am everyday and wake up at 4.30am every morning. JUST TO STUDY! (study-holic) but my results wont be any better, standard one.

Monday, took O levels English Oral.
HENG AH! GOT MUSIC AS MY TOPIC! REALLY SUPER HENG! so i'd practically just bombed all the band stuff in + all the music language that we dont normally use.
&the conversation question was, " Do you like music?" HAHAHA! WTF MANZSX! YOU KIDDING ME! ITS LIKE DUH!!!! OF COURSE, I LOVE MUSIC! otherwise i wouldn't be in band right?!
OHYA! THE EXAMINERS LAUGHED AT ME LEH! (T~T) hope i didn't say anything wrong.
i stammered at a few parts through reading and side-tracked too much for conversation. come to think bout that, i really have much better points than what i answered that day.

&yes, O level MT results were released ytd, many people cried. those who have to retake cry, no need retake also cry! haha! #justsaying
i went back band today!
yea yea yea, after so long~ miss band like @#$%^&&@#
OHYA! NEWUPDATE: IM PERFORMING ON SUNDAY.
it was some how decided today. when....*too complicated, lazy explain* . HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
its been so long since i had such fun! &my dear juniors want to treat me "cake" . aww~ how "nice" of them to do so.

OKAY, MY HEART IS CURRENTLY FLYING UP AND DOWN BECAUSE IMMA CHECK OUT FOR MY DPA RESULTS SOON! LIKE IN A FEW MINUTES! I'LL SAY MY LAST WORDS BEFORE I VIEW MY RESULTS!
"NO MATTER IF I'VE GOT THE COURSE OR NOT, I WILL STILL CONTINUE TO MOTIVATE MYSELF TO STUDY HARD AND CONTINUE AIMING FOR THE GRADES I HAVE ALWAYS WANTED! "
OKAY! I GO SEE RESULTS NOW! WISH ME LUCK!

AU REVOIR! \(^_^)/
"holycrap, i can barely feel myself already."

p/s : i seem to have stopped sharing my views.

Confession #5

2011-08-12T23:40:00.001+08:00

One of the worst feelings anyone could get :

It is when you feel so bad you have to let it all out, but you can't .

You thought crying would help, but you can't. Because you're unable to.

In the end, you're not able to let everything go &you're back to square one.

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关心

2011-08-11T22:30:00.002+08:00

说真的，这种现象已经很久没发生了。
很久都没有人因为关心而像家人一样的凶我。
虽然是被骂，但也会感到那么一点安慰。因为会发现到其实还有人在关心。
可惜的是。。。这种现象不会长久。
几个月后，几个星期后，几天后，几个小时后或几分钟后。
现在拥有的关心可能一瞬间就消失。应该珍惜还是静静的等待，静静地为这些关心而感到快乐？
我选择在一旁静静地看着一切的经过。因为期待只会带来失望。
而且一情况来判断，这种关心不会长久。

囧 ! 人生啊~

放手

2011-08-01T23:30:00.008+08:00

我深深的祝福你们。
没有我的存在可能会对你好点儿。
或许我应该和从前一样，从你生命中消失。

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/VIGIKOH/484017

Times when i feel that my presence didn't bother.

2011-07-31T22:04:00.001+08:00

Yea, there'll be the 'Fuck it' kinda feel .
tried to ignore such situations. Obviously, it failed. otherwise i wouldn't be mentioning it.

Really wish i could go back to primary school / kindergarten years. Days when i really enjoyed myself and be myself.
Secondary school is so... fake? Almost everything is fake. Its fucked up.
It sucks. &yes, it sucks to be me too.

Ever felt like you are being ignored in crowded situations?

Everyone's talking to everyone, all except to you. Everyone has got someone, everyone except you.
I am eliminated. (its a damn fact.)
Yea, fuck it. It sucks big time.

Confession #4

2011-07-28T22:31:00.002+08:00

我恨不得尽快买一台属于自己的电脑！
这样一来，我可以在自己的房间里看偶像剧！　
想哭就哭，想笑就笑。
就不必在乎爸妈和弟弟对我的陌生眼光了！！！
我也就不会因此而感到尴尬。（〉＿〈）

Fact #1

2011-07-27T07:43:00.001+08:00

You'll only treasure things when they're lost.

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Confession #3

2011-07-21T16:48:00.002+08:00

Hate people telling secrets to other people right in front of me. Super awkward especially when there's only 3 of us.

If it's once in a while , I'm fine. But this is getting way too often .

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Confessions #2

2011-07-18T22:59:00.000+08:00

其实。。。事实上，
女生所期望的只是一个可靠的人。
只要他能够随时随地在她最需要他的时候出现，她就心满意足了。

something that smells!

2011-07-15T23:52:00.001+08:00

HEY PEOPLE! IM GOING TO MALAYSIA TOMORROW!
WOOHOO~

For what you may ask.
well.... its none other than....

A DURIAN TRIP! ITS DURIAN SEASON, EVERYONE GO GRAB YOUR DURIANS NOW! \(^_^)/
HAHAHAHA!
(to those who hate durians, gnd! this is the bomb yo!)

this time, ITS NOT JB! ITS MALACA!
*hopes to get to try local nonya delicacies too!* YUM YUM!
omg! egg-cited yo!
gonna turn in soon! have to reach amk at 6am tomorrow morning .
_(-.-)_ *sian sian sian*

oright, BONNE NUIT! \(^_^)_

Nyp dpa talk

2011-07-12T16:49:00.001+08:00

I wanna get outta here now!

Can feel my eyes closing + feeling of fucked-up attitude coming up!

Tak boleh tahan. But don't know how to say.

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DPA

2011-07-11T21:04:00.004+08:00

这一生中，因为成进被周围的人看不起，被他们批评。
从那时起，我就决定　我以后都决不能被任何人看不起！　

因此让我很难下定我想要的　“课程”　是什么。
course A : 是我想去的学院。但是 further studies 只有外国有。
course B: 在意见我不喜欢的学院(名誉不太好的学院）但我对这个course 算是满有兴趣的。
好难选择哦。。。　选到我都快要疯了。
靠！到现在为此，我的 application form 连一个字都还没有！　

@#$%^&*&^ #$^&^^%$
疯了疯了疯了！！！！　

（对不起，刚才心情真的非常糟。所以在我控制不了自己的心情下，不知不觉地对你失利了。还一直叫你去死。很抱歉。）　

Envy

2011-07-10T21:40:00.002+08:00

I swear this weekend passed really fast. IT'S GONNA BE MONDAY IN APPROXIMATELY 2HRS! SERIOUSLY, WTF MANSZX!

Spent almost half of the day at KFC studying today. Yup, alone again.
Never study with more than 3 people. Really super hard to concentrate.

So, the moment I board 853 to go amk's kfc, i see a bunch of old man and old woman STANDING on the bus. Super heartache. Then, like always we'll have this group of people who occupy the seats and not give them up to elderly. Apparently, there is this couple, with their kids. And they just slept their way through pretending not to see the elderly. FAG! Hate this kinda people.

Anyway, I alighted and walked to drive thru mac but it was too crowded so I ended up in kfc. Sat there for 4 hours plus and completed revision on half of organic chemistry. Half more to go. Sian. I swear I was so tired I almost slept there! Lucky got earpiece. So I listened to music and completed my work. I'm glad I put in some effort to study today. :) first step to many other study sessions.

KT promised to study with me next week! \(^_^)/ got companion already.
Walao! I have a lot of things to blog about but i forgot what i wanted to say -.-

Oright, AU REVOIR!

P.s. - Saw hell lot of happy families dining in kfc. Super envy.

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Sports fiesta'11

2011-07-07T19:35:00.000+08:00

Last year in Chongboon, its gonna be my last sports fiesta tomorrow.
dont think i'll ever have a chance to run like that in the future after my secondary school life.

Feeling kinda guilty now for rejecting an offer given to me. it wasn't really an offer, more like a chance to participate. and my excuse is "im not confident in doing this". Seriously VIGIKOH, fuck you. what kind of retarded excuse is that?! i know, i know.. This is one of the most crucial year for the house. but i really cant do it. Lost all my sportsmanship. Seeing all those that had happened during badminton inter-house kinda demoralised me. Sorry girl, i know you really wanted me to be in. but i rejected because of my selfish reasons.
i really feel bad.
"#pisces are selfless most of the times" - yea, most of the times. except this time.
Super selfish. all i think about is myself. (but i really cant run without confidence.)- seriously, why do i crap so much? -.-

oright, bro wanna use com now. update tomorrow bout the sports fiesta.

Au revoir.

going to ICA!

2011-07-04T00:41:00.000+08:00

AAAHHH!!!
OMG! GOING ICA IN THE MORNING!

What for? - NEED TO CHANGE MY PASSPORT PHOTO!
too many warning from custom officers in m'sia already. Seriously needa change. The photo in my passport was taken when i was P4! (like seriously, wtf!) I WAS SHORT HAIR THEN! WHO IN THE WORLD WOULD BE ABLE TO RECOGNISE ME?!
Hope, i wont look ugly tomorrow when i take photo. this photo is going to last me for years! :/

Bonne nuit! <3

P.S.: Due to the fact that blogger does not have a function that allows bloggers to private certain posts, im looking for an alternative site.
Any suggestions?! :)

Tough soul

2011-07-01T01:10:00.000+08:00

What does it take for one to be a good and filial daughter?
I thought accompanying them, loving them, understanding them and obeying them is all that they wanted.
But maybe, just maybe, im wrong.
Maybe, they wanted more than what i thought they wanted.

Anyway, 1st week of school was pretty tough. Trying to get my tummy adapt to my new diet habits.
It isn't really a diet to make myself slimmer, more like a diet aimed to save money.
W/ extra Amath tuition, it increases the financial burden my family has to face. Therefore, the need to carry out this "special" diet. Nowadays, kids my age dont have to worry much about their expenses. Neither do i! but, i chose to. i chose not to rely on my parents on every single thing.

So, in order to save $120 for my new tuition fees monthly, i took a little effort to save and scrimp on every single little thing. Trying my best to control my temptations to go out with friends everyday(sorry, for not joining you guys. but i feel bad not spending money when i go out to eat with you guys. i dont want you all to feel awkward in anyway too). I feel guilty turning down offers to go out, i really do. :/

It has only been 5 days. 5 DAYS! and my gastric is giving me problems. Like those gastric pains i had before, they come during mid-night! F-ing horrible. What to do? Tahan la!
加油 VIGIKOH！要坚强！你行的！

okay, as you can see, its not early and i have school tomorrow.
NIGHTS!
Au Revoir! \(^_^)/

NEGA - Neo Destruction HD PV.avi

2011-06-26T15:00:00.002+08:00

Screamers seem to scream out how i feel.

max. shiokness

"死"

2011-06-26T13:51:00.000+08:00

你几乎每天都叫我死.
或许你心里真的很想要我死.
但我想你往往都不知道我有很多时候有多么想死.

Confessions #01

2011-06-23T23:03:00.002+08:00

"I tend to neglect. "

1 freak fact I hate!

I think you guys realise it too.

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"自爱"

2011-06-22T22:32:00.001+08:00

"自爱" Whats that?
I think i've never got it. Instead, i really hate myself on many occasions.

I think im a spoilt brat,a bad friend and really self-centered.
Maybe all i wanted was attention. (i really dont understand myself. this is just an assumption)

Well, i dont assume things just because i think it is. I assume so because i realise i'll feel really nasty knowing im not getting attention. As in like... someone whom i've been sms-ing suddenly just stop sms-ing me. then i'll have all sorts of crazy thoughts bout why didn't s/he msg me. But after a while after i've found a new entertainment for myself or someone else to talk to me, the stop sms-ing matter just sort of went to the back of my head.(probably because im used to this. its been happening since idk when. primary school maybe?)
But recently, this situation has been bothering me. why? i'm not really sure. I just feel annoyed by it. Like.. Why did i even continue sms-ing people when i know the outcome i going to be the same?

Spoilt brat? yes, i am. super spoilt. Always so lazy to do everything. Some days i really just wanna lay on the bed and sleep and sleep and sleep until i feel like waking up.
Then recently, i realise i didnt really mind people helping me hold my stuff.(this is hell bad)
I remembered how much i mind people helping me take my books and stuff in the past. &id rather look like a frail little girl carrying a big stack of books dragging my feet as i walk. But this hasnt been happening recently.
Actually i kind of realise it like ytd, when a friend wanted to help me take books and i felt that it was great and how nice it is. Half of my brain tells me to just let the man be the man and help me carry books. BUT the other half of my brain says, " NEVER RELY ON OTHERS! DONT TROUBLE OTHERS! DO YOUR OWN STUFF! " it was practically commanding me to get back my books. yep, i did! and carried the super heavy A math textbook.
At least im aware of that now.

Bad friend, i think i really am a bad friend. I just cant bring myself to tell my friend where s/he went wrong. and whether what s/he did was right or wrong. I remembered correcting a girlfriend of mine when i was sec 1. It got into a big commotion for idk what reason. Then after that incident, i seem to just accept my friend's flaws. well, on some occassions i made an attempt to tell somebody what they did was wrong. but aiya! like that likea kaypo only.(which recently caused me to get into conflict. fml)
I WAS JUST TRYING TO HELP A FRIEND! (in fact, 2 of em)
Anyway, a good friend would correct you on your mistakes and tell you whats right and whats not. Not just accept every single flaw have and every mistake you make.
Typing all these really making me feel maxi guilty.

Self-centered. some times i feel that. All i really care about is myself.
Like... whether other people like it or not or would it be inconvenient for anyone if i did this or that. Some times i just don't bother considering other people's feelings and would just do things on my own will. It may have brought inconvenience to anyone of you. im sorry. :(
I realise too, that when i talk to people, im always talking about my story. :/

R/s? Aiya, dont think i would want to be in one.
Message to YOU, "sorry, please move on. i really am not gonna be in a r/s" maybe not until im 20+ or something. It really isn't my thing. Knowing i'll just be a selfish bitch around you, id rather say no now when im in a clear mind state. But i dont know why, i still envy loving couples.

Shit manzsx! Relly hate myself for all these.
Never mind, just feeling damn sian recently. Like too tired to bother about all these. just wanna do what im suppose to do and live a simple life.

Ps: I think i super mega just contradicted my own points.
: and im sorry for ranting. im just really tired and needed a space to type non-stop.

Au Revoir!

(&now, im guilty of spending other people's money! -.-)

Wish

2011-06-10T01:44:00.001+08:00

Some times, I wish I could grow up faster and much earlier.

So that I can start to be more independent and don't have to start using my parents money. Be it for studies, food, retail or other expenses.

I hate using my parents money. I feels like... I've become their burden. Their heaviest burden. They shouldn't even have go en birth to me in the first place. I was a sin from birth, maybe I should just die. This way they don't have to spend so much money on me.

But no, I can't. Because since they've brought me up this big. The least I should do is not rely on them.

I want to grow up sooner.

I don't want to rely on my Parents.

I want to earn my own money.

I want to spend my own money.

I want to depend on myself,

I have to.

Otherwise, I'll be nothing but a burden.

Best way to have your YAKULT!

2011-06-08T01:18:00.001+08:00

I believe many of you have tried YAKULT before.
but have you people ever wondered...
What is the best way to have your YAKULT?
Haha! It taste best when it is frozen! (frozen?!)
YES! FROZEN YAKULT!
Now, i shall teach you how to prepare your own frozen YAKULT!

NUMBER ONE: PICK YOUR FAVORITE YAKULT FLAVOUR!

NUMBER TWO: "SHAKE" IT!!!

NUMBER THREE: PUT IT IN THE FREEZER!
(suggested waiting time - 2 hours!)

NUMBER FOUR: BRING IT OUT! GRAB A TEASPOON!

NUMBER FIVE: START TO NOM NOM NOM!!!!

Haha! my aunt taught me this. she made it for me. damn super nice!
&never buy vitagen! sucks like shit! DRINK YAKULT!!!!!!!!!
if you happen to stay in Ang Mo Kio and would like to have Yakult delivery, must tell me okay?! i help you contact Yakult aunty! :D

Au Revoir! hope everyone enjoyed their FROZEN YAKULT!

rants.

2011-06-07T21:12:00.001+08:00

I've been thinking. Is this really what i want?
looking at my MYE results, what have i becomed? its so bad i cant even use it to get into the course i want. 3 more months. you think i can make it? its god damn hard.
my Math used to be like awesome but now... seriously, cant even score a shit.
every morning i wake up, i'm reluctant to get off bed. then, i find myself lazing in the house rather than doing constructive studying. i'm not following schedule! not at all!
wtf man, seriously. this moment, i really feel like crap.

every night, without fail, home starts spamming noises. its really hard to explain how annoying it really gets. its not just those common nagging you get at home. i get stuffs like... ~~*censored*~~ /edited

FUG! so sick and tired of all these crap. followed by my brian's consistent spamming of redundant stuff like seeing you and witnessing people dying and being brought to cremation. I even saw myself otw to being cremated while my parents and my brother cried in the halll! i really dont know what im thinking. but its scary alright, it really is. its like... running through my mind day and night. &the fact that i am not able to concentrate and discipline myself to study makes me hate myself even more.

some times, i really wonder if i suffer from depression. -.-

老朋友, 算什么?

2011-06-03T22:10:00.002+08:00

认识了你 6/7 年了。这些年来我几时背叛过你?! 很多时候还会默默的帮助你。但在前几个晚上你却为了一些莫名其妙, 芝麻绿豆的事情不跟我说话, 跟我赌气! 真是不可理喻!!!

真气人! 我真的真的没有对你有偏见, 也没有想要害你。你是我 brother 呃, 我当然会帮你啊。令我生气的是过了那么多年, 你宁可相信自己一时的直觉也不相信这个帮了你那么多年的 sister。

然后, 更气人的是… 我是为了想帮助你然后才被你冤枉! 即使是你告诉我事情的发生, 只要你说一句, "不要告诉她"。我绝对绝对不会告诉她。还会帮助你们两和好。伸出援手帮助他人, 我做错了吗?
What to do? 下次一定要放聪明点咯。少管闲事就不会为自己带来一堆不必要的麻烦。

唉! 管它的, 算是我又看走眼… 我为什么终是认错朋友? 是我太笨还是太傻? :(
但是这样莫名其妙的失去了一个老朋友, 难免还会感到有一点失望, 伤心。
咳! 人生啊… 真是悲哀。

好了, 就说到这里啦。大家请记得不要太关心别人。因为你不知道谁会在你伸出援手的那一刻诬赖你的一番好心。

Au revoir . _((T_T)_

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That's What I Am

2011-06-01T18:47:00.004+08:00

'That's What I Am' a truly inspiring movie made from a real event in USA.

This show mainly revolves around the life of an eight grader named Andy Nichol.
Dignity. A character that is really hard to master. Even i myself don't have my own dignity at times. However, Stanley(aka Big G) in the show is full of dignity. Despite being laughed at and bullied, but he spares those bullies even when he had got them in his mighty hand(he is damn friggin tall). I really admire this spirit of his. How he is able to just let the anger go so quickly. It would have take me hours to chill if someone crossed my line(take today for an example). If it wasn't for Mr Simon, Andy would have never realised what it would be like to have dignity. He would not have known how to brave up and do what he think is right. At first, he ponders to help Stanley. But after spending time with Stanley, he knew what will be right to do upon encountering sucha situation. instead of standing by/walk away, he could have helped. &helping a "loser/geek" in the school requires hell lot of dignity & bravery. On the other hand, Mr Simon, a really great teacher taught his students great values of life. Although being accused of being homo by a student he offended(the student got suspended) he'd rather not deny that he is homo. Because he thinks that there is no need to(i strongly agree). Because what has a teacher's private life got to do with his/her teaching, right? It really doesn't make sense at all. A good teacher is really a teacher whose educating goes beyond the walls of the classroom. He went all out to educate his students even if it means he has leave. Really awesome teacher, Love his spirit. (reminds me of Mrs Lee L.Y., Mr Lim B.K., Ms Tan S.G and Ms Tan B.J.)

This movie really shows me how we should live life, how to respect others.
Never think that you're a douchebag/jughead because everyone can do anything. The key is whether you're brave enough to take up the challenge and do what you think is right and do it well.
Everyone has different views. It doesn't mean that nothing can be done without doing things your way. Who knows, someone else could do it better than you using their own way.
Nobody should ever look down on anyone because they might be better than you. &i believe these victims are definitely braver and stronger than those cowardly bullies. and when you see someone bullying your friend/anyone else, please do step forward and help.(not saying that you should be kaypo) it is just... doing a good deed? At that moment, your friends really do believe in you and since you saw it, why won't you help? that guy/girl there is your friend! you should do something to help!

ALWAYS BELIEVE IN YOURSELF! DO WHAT YOU THINK IS RIGHT! EVERYONE CAN DO IT!

Quotes
"Human Dignity + Compassionate = PEACE" - Mr. Simon
"I believe life is about timing, opportunities and chances." - Mr. Simon

post de script
: was suppose to do a post on my chinese O level papers. but i wasn't in the mood.
: wanted to rant about something i felt really disappointed about. i guess i'll just give it a pass and let it be.

Au revoir!

♫ Go Ahead And Dream - Rick Jensen

SUNSILK GIVEAWAY!

2011-05-31T21:16:00.005+08:00

HI HI HI HI HI HI HI! IM SUPPOSE TO COMPLETE MY DAMN COMPO ON "SUCCESS" (-_-)_|_
BUT HERE I AM, BLOGGING!!!!!!!!!!

TODAY, I SHALL INTRODUCE SUNSILK HAIR SHAMPOO AND CONDITIONER!

For the first time, Sunsilk worked with 7 hair experts to put this product together!
It has ingredients @#$%^O)(*&^%$#$&*(&*^%$#@.......... (seriously, just skip the crap!)

QUICKLY CLICK THE PICTURE ABOVE TO GET YOUR FREE SAMPLES!!!!!
who cares how much they give? who cares how long we have to wait? ITS FREE! SO JUST TAKE!
HAHAHAHA! (#cheapo) but don't cheapo where can save money, right not? haha!
you will receive a 30ml shampoo and 30ml conditioner. (see! so good right?!)
BUT YOU MUST HAVE A FB ACCOUNT!
(tips: to get more, use your brother/sister/mother/father/ahgong/ahma/uncle/aunty/cousin/greatgrandmother fb account. HAHA! )
&this free give away lasts till December this year! so you can create as many FB account as you like and collect as many samples.

Advantages of having hair samples:
- go swimming JUST BRING YOUR SAMPLE. use already throw, so you dont have to bring extra stuff home, &it lightens the weight of your bag(by a lil only. but also counted ma. HAHA!)
- go camp, just bring the SUNSILK SAMPLE! 3D2N more than enough right? =3=
- small and easy to bring around, if you are those who like to go gym or go to some atas place to workout... PUHLEAS BATHE AFTER YOU WORKOUT! so you wont look all sloppy.(sloppy = super unglam okay? especially for girls.)

Disadvantages:
- 没有!!! \(^_^)/

Wa! i machiam sound like i promoting this product. HAHAHA!
Please follow for any other #CHEAPO updates! :D :D :D

Au Revoir! <3
(stay tune to damaged-tape@bs.com for my next post! 《华文会考》）

矛盾。

2011-05-28T20:04:00.000+08:00

挽回一段成进没有成果的爱情。。。
拥有一段没有未来的爱情。。。
值得吗？

如果彼此在一起不打算结婚，算不算浪费时间？
靠！我还是别想那么多比较好。
应该多专心读书。加油！！！！

Au revoir

♫ 因为你 - 方大同

Black Friday

2011-05-14T13:20:00.001+08:00

Friday the 13th, BLACK FRIDAY!
seems like.. Black Friday isn't as bad as it seems like it is. Haha!
had an awesome BLACK FRIDAY! YES! BLACK FRIDAY!
it was the last day of MYE!
But! i totally screwed both of the paper yesterday .
However, things turned out for the better. \(^_^)/

Met Xean and Emman at Somerset. -.- thought we don't have to crash back Nex/Bishan/AMK. too bad the newly renovated Shaw theater and Cineleisure movie tickets sold out.
Result: went back Nex. -.-

Had dinner at this bobo restaurant - The Asian Kitchen. chicken mcnugget! the serving there mall like ants. they want to feed who sia so small. small kids ah? pft! chengting $3.50! smaller than those outside by half! charge more also. CHEEEE!!!! Emman's $5.90 rice was served in bamboo. HAHA! damn small la! nvm, suit his size. HAHAHAHA! Xean's fried rice seriously don't worth $8.90! too ex already. anyway, WE WENT TO WATCH MOVIE AFTER THAT!

WA! i tell you Shaw theater is like the best. <3 the seats &the fact that the theater is small! not a lot people to make unnecessary noises, and the fact that it is small makes me feel more comfortable. caught THOR!!!!!!!!!!! NICE! highly recommended! After i watched, i finally realised why everyone referred Thor to the recent election. haha! Thor has a hammer while his evil brother has a lightning wand thingy. but in the end damn sad leh! Thor cannot meet Jen forever. then Jen still on Earth finding ways to meet Thor. &his brother is one ASSHOLE! wile i was watching the movie, you know how much i wanted to jump into the movie to slap that man. Walao! that guy really damn gl lo. Resort to tricks, dont wanna let Thor return. i think its partially due to jealousy(seems like everything leads down to jealousy). Its amazing what jealousy can change a person's personality.

After movie, Angie came to meet us for SUPPER! YEA! SUPPER!

Supper @Andersen's

The service there quite bad can. FONDUE NOT NICE! wont melt one! &The staff there 脸臭臭! like they don't wanna serve us. i know we took a really long time to pick our ice cream. but so what? you shouldn't treat your customers like that! !@%&I*^&^%$#@

went to the balcony of nex later on. the part where they finally open it to public. the part where their escalator is finally fixed and available for public to use. the part that is half way up skygarden. AIYA! ABOVE WENDYS! LOL! lepak there sang songs had fun. but!!! HWAI?! hwai was there this group of annoying guys who sang like shit and still laugh at us?! @#$%^&*(*&^%$ 先生们，你们的父母没教你们什么是礼貌吗？！Bloodeh! because nex was gonna turn in for the night security uncle started chasing everyone away :( went fairprice to get some stuff and headed to Central Macs w/ Kenneth(HE LOOKS LIKE 方大同 now!) who happened to knock-off when we were leaving. haha! he and Emman shoot each other until damn funny! haha! non-stop one! no matter what Emman say Kenneth also shoot back. see already also tak boleh tahan. haha!! left around 11.45pm. Xean and Emman took cab while i sent the rest to the bus stop and headed home.

To wrap it up, Friday the 13th WAS GREAT! <3

ohya! did i mention I saw NOVO people @nex? waved at Julia but she didn't wave back! :(

Au Revoir! next post coming soon! :D

SAY NO TO THIS!

2011-05-06T17:28:00.001+08:00

水研社茶品专业店 @NEX

HELLO! TO ALL READERS!
PLEASE DO NOT! BUY THIS BUBBLETEA!!!
IT MAY LOOK DAMN NICE!!! (because its a new store)
IT MAY COST THE SAME LIKE KOI/GONGCHA!
THOUGH IT IS STILL BUBBLETEA!
BUT!!!!!!!!!
DO NOT BE FOOLED!!!!!!

1st experience: Green milktea
"Don't even have the milk tea taste. Only taste greentea." -.-

2nd experience: Hazelnut milktea (TODAY!)
"SUCK TTM! NOT NICE! no milktea taste + it is diluted! "
DISGUSTING!

self-reminder: NEVER BUY BUBBLETEA from 水研社茶品专业店!!! (still can say 茶品专业店. MYGAWD! *faints*)

MYE

2011-05-06T17:16:00.000+08:00

its Bearbear!!!

It is exactly...
10days till MYE ends
24days till my first O level theory paper.(Chinese)
73days till O levels CLLC
171days till i take the rest of my O level papers.

STRESS!!!!!!!

171 - 24 = 147
147 - 20 = 127
127 / 7 = 18......

18days for each subject!!!
If this laziness in me is going to continue, imma die for O levels.
I used to be doing well for humanities. but! whatever happened to those brain cells that possess the humanities info?! all die already?! bloodeh.
171days more! &it feels like its damn friggin near! (but why the hell am i not doing anything? -.-)

Anyway, MYE is still ongoing. just using today as a rest day. don't feel like talking to anybody again. screwed up both humanities paper :( chemistry paper 1 30/40(wtfmanszx damn jialat) .
E math paper 2 - not enough sleep, turned out that i forgot so many stuff and cant find a freaking solution to a simple question that seemed so familiar(FML).
damn sian sia. for a moment, i hope O levels are over already. feel so lethargic.
due to the damn MYE i'm having less than 4 hours of sleep everyday.
OHYA! YOU KNOW WHAT?!

THIS DAMN SMALL GREEN PRAYING MANTIS ATTACK ME LAST SUNDAY @auntshouse WHEN I WAS STUDYING FOR SS!!!
WALAO! STUPID! DON'T LIKE YOU! GO AWAY!

&a few nights before that....

THIS PINK LIZARD WAS HANGING ON MY CEILING! SO BIIIGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!! (okay, it looks small here -.-)
but bro & i killed it in the end /(>_<)/

oright oright, i was b o r e d. so i started crapping here since i'm sick and tired of seeing the same picture every time i view my blog. Haha!

au revoir!

SPEECHDAY'11

2011-04-14T22:28:00.000+08:00

Last performance, slackest performance.
Totally just slacking through the whole performance. not playing much. :( last performance in ChongBoon already. So fast! :( starting to reminisce the old days. where we had so much fun together. had prata day, bashed someone, slacked together, makan and kisiao together. omg!
really damn sad :( plus there is so much things in band i just cant let go off.*sniff*
4years, 说长不长,说短不短. hais....
don't wanna leave band. I MISS HAVING BAND PRACTICE!!! :(
Starting to miss so many things about band. my juniors, my seniors, my instruments, etc etc...

au revoir :(

SYF'11 - SILVER! (MOF & Der Volgelhandler)

2011-04-11T23:28:00.002+08:00

"The results will be announced according to the order the bands performed. First up, band no. 1, Chong Boon Symphonic Band *pauses*.... SILVER!"

CONGRATULATIONS FOR ATTAINING SILVER AWARD!

SYF-SILVER (maintained)
"Regardless of what we get, i believe everyone tried their best on stage. It isn't about what we get but about the experience. Think and enjoy the experience you had gained. &strive even harder next time to achieve better results. It is through falling that you will learn how to pick yourself up. And as you pick yourself up, you got to show the world that you're going to do better this time round. I ♥ CBSB! \(^_^)/" - just took it off my FB status.

If silver means putting in this much effort, we''l have to work harder to achieve a gold next time oright?! GO CBSB! JIAYOU!
no one should be discouraged by the results we get.

& this is from FB too! -"CBSB THE BEST!!!! CBSB PERCUSSION ROCKKKKSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥"
(Haha! Fredy say Percussion rocks okay?! *暗笑*)

After SYF, we stayed on till the whole session end and headed back to school(skipped lessons :P). BUT THEN! We still had to slog through the whole damn afternoon for speech day. *ROAR!!!* stupid day. once speech day rehearsal end, MADNESS IN BAND ROOM!!! CAMWHORE! ALL THE WAY!!!
WENT TWIRLING AND FLYING TO AND FRO LIKE I'M ON A ROLLER COASTER! Played with Yeeman, Huansheng aka AHCHEW! & Cynthia. Went WILD on the black trolleys we got from AVA room :P hahaha! so fun! it feels like i'm sec one again. played while we had paparazzi(linhua & irina) snapping photos and videos of us! hahaha! (i have a feeling i'm one of the most unglam sec 4. HAHAHA) CAMWHORED WITH NERDY SPECS AGAIN! WOOHOO! WITH AHCHEW, LEEXEAN, DOUGLAS(DUCKLESS)!!! WEEE!!!!
let the photos do the talking! *bloop bloop*

YEEMAN! &ME!

DID I MENTION WE STAYED OVER AND I DIDNT SLEEP A SINGLE WINK?! ROAR! &WE WOKE UP AT 3.45AM! :@

LEAVING SCHOOL FOR SCH! WOOHOO!!!!!

everyone look damn nice here!

FUNKY FACES! SengJun^^!

*testing testing* in the room, tuning and playing through one last time!

STEADY! EVERY MONTH, 24TH! (i look unglam)

MY AWESOME JUNIOR, CLORENCETANSHIJIE! <3

THE MADNESS BEGINS!!!!!!

DOUGLAS, AHCHEW, ME, LEEXEAN!

OLDSCHOOL!(w/o the sepia effect :( )

gay or plain passion? :)

JIANGJIANG! **BONUS!**

never take percussion photo, no time :( :( :( :(

VIGIKOH <3 CBSB 4EVER!!!!!

[官方HQ]A-Lin 給我一個理由忘記(MV完整版)

2011-03-17T02:52:00.000+08:00

Its all crushing down

2011-03-17T01:25:00.003+08:00

"If we hadn't split up, if we were still together... It'll be our 2nd anniversary tonight."

I'm beat. All the studies, band, friendship, relationship, family matters, etc. Its all piling up on me. It feels as if they're all stacking up on my head. And i'm about to fall.

SYF is nearing, to be exact its only 18 days away. 4 April, 1st day, 1st session, 1st band.
A curse or a blessing? I don't feel as stressed as i was 2 years ago when i had to play toms, bass drum, chimes, triangle, crash cymbals and suspended cymbal. This year, i get to play timpani and triangle. Important parts. but why, why don't i really feel SYF smacking right straight into my face. That should be how it feels! I used to enjoy, enjoy chionging for SYF, enjoying those days when the whole band strive and persevere together as one. Now, everything is so different. Almost everyone don't feel motivated. People are even going overseas during the intensive band practices during the March holidays. I try, i try and find ways to help motivate people. I try to help by trying to come back almost every single day to motivate people to come back and practice. I tried, i really did. But all they did was talk/walk away/ignored/dontevengiveadamn. Some times, i wonder.. why. Why do I have to try so hard if my juniors don't even bother. I'm a failure as a leader.

I failed in my past year as a SL, I hoped the SL after me can be a better leader. But i was wrong. And why is he like that? I'm all to be blamed for. So, i tried, i taught/nagged. Everything seems to have fall upon deaf ears. I realised how i did not teach them to be a leader. I gave opportunities. I gave them instructions on what to do and how to do. I tried to lead the next batch and teach them to be leaders. They improved in a way or another. But did not meet what i expected them to know. All the SL stuff, the checklist, etc. Instructions were given for them to do the checklist. Excuse - Lazy. So, i helped them write the checklist because i felt that they will do the check list properly. But, i was wrong once again. the paper was marked once and only half way through the first row. and then never again. I pampered them too much from the very beginning. Now, they see harsh as "too fierce" and their defense mode will be up causing a big hooha. They'll start getting pissed off then they'll rant then they'll hate band then they'll stop coming.

Have you every seen a leader being threatened? And this leader have to give in to their junior just to make sure their junior comes for band. I must have been the dumb-est leader on Earth. And despite all the threatening, i always try to put a good word for you in front of people because i believe you can. But you always disappoint me. I spread good words of you in around so people will find you less annoying, more people will be more understanding when they talk to you, more people will find you okay. I speak so much some times, I feel that i'm sorta brain washing them. Yes, you indeed have great potential. But you need to know how to be more serious and less immature. I trust you. But i lied to you. Not because i hate you or don't trust you. But because i really can't tell you. It not a secret that involves only me. It involves 2 parties. I shouldn't be selfish and tell you everything without his consent. And its something i've never told people about(okay, maybe a couple). Besides this matter has been over for almost 2 years now. Do you have to bring it up. It not nice to dig someone's ugly matter and turn it into a threat to not come for band you know. I feel like i'm being forced. and whats more, you're my junior and you're threatening me?! it really is wrong. the system is wrong. you may beg to differ but... never mind. Some feelings are too complicated to be explained in words.

Throughout the whole 3 years in Chongboonsec, this being the 4th. I've been juggling with life, studies, friendship and relationship. I really dont have have much time for myself, do i? I've got so used to working, rushing and running i can't stop. Once i stop, everything seem so slow, it made me feel like i'm wasting time, i'm useless. This feeling is really annoying. Soon, SYF will be over. I won't have to go back for band practices anymore. Something that has been in my schedule for these few years and never gave me a break. not even on holidays. Its really like my 2nd home already. I will really not get use to the many extra hours of time once SYF is over. I'm using this time to study. But i'm afraid i won't get used to it.

So many times, i pray, i hope that secondary school will end soon. Because i don't wanna suffer anymore. Everyday, i dread going to school. I dread entering class, going to school is like a chore. The only thing good about school is band and only band. nothing seems to motivate me more than being in band(i sound so much like a band geek). Its the only place in school I can feel more like myself and not someone else. In class, i have to be someone else. Pretend it didn't matter, pretend the friend sitting next to me was the same him before the issue happened. Pretend that they did not do it on purpose. Pretend that i wasn't abandoned. But now.... I thought of what will happen once i leave this school. I won't be able to go to this place i feel good as often as i use to be. I'll leave this place full of memories, ~~I'll leave this place when I met this special someone who became my first love~~. I'll leave those people whom i appreciate and had fun with, those who really cared for me. Who stood by my side to accompany me when i was bawling like a friggin baby. Theres so much to remember, so much to appreciate.

I lost a friend, about a month ago. Someone whom I was rather close to. Is it because of money? I believe so. I tried, I tried to talk to you again, to let us go back to the days when we really looked like siblings. I tried to mend the friendship, but your attitude and actions proved it all. You were not keen at all. Its alright, i'm fine. just another wrong judgement. Its not my first anyway. Just try to be wiser and smarter next time. Isn't it amazing how $$$ really makes the world go round. tsk.

Relationship... A day after my birthday, everything was back. It was like time had brought me back 2 years ago how it all started. After so many brainwashing and psycho-ing I received you still came back. I tried, i tried so hard. I thought i made it. but i was wrong. It was never so easy to forget what happened. I wanted to, to forget the whole scene. People are coming into my life and leaving me. Many took turns. Many were nice and sweet and great. The more that passed by the little bit lesser i feel towards you(i'm a naive girl, sorry to disappoint you). After 14 May, i vowed and told myself to never get into a r/s until O levels ended. I'm still following it. But its gonna end soon. What will I do once its over? I really dont know. Make another vow? I really hope you'll move on. I didn't have my breakfast more lunch that day but i found a way to fill my tummy. you were concerned and got a friend to buy me a meal despite knowing that i'll most probably not accept it. But, i was happy, i really was. I wasn't angry. I mean who wouldn't like a surprise meal when they have nothing to eat right? Thank you and i'm not angry with you because of that. I'm not feeling great now but you don't have to torture yourself and emo alone downstairs. Really,juts go home soon alright? I hope you're safe and won't do anything stupid.

Life has been like crap for a while now. Will it be over soon? I hope so. Sorry for such a crappy post. Everyone has limits, i'm on the verge of falling down already. :/

I'll try to blog more often when i have time. Especially about more pleasant stuff instead of rants and complains and emo posts. But honestly, I don't feel as motivated to blog as i used to be before. So don't expect much. Sorry readers.

Au Revoir.

Valentine's Day '11

2011-02-16T23:55:00.000+08:00

ONE OF MY WORST VALENTINES DAY!
SPENT MY WHOLE AFTERNOON IN THE BAND ROOM. AND AT SOME POINT OF TIME, I'M EVEN ALONE IN THE BAND ROOM! -.-
some times, i really dont understand why i even bother to open the band room. like nobody come back one.

okay, so here are the pictures of what i got.

-SUNFLOWER FROM FAYE [its prettaye, thanks babe ;) ]
-ROSE FROM SAIHON [thanks bitch!! ]
-RABBIT FROM KANGAROO [ \(n_n)/ ]

haha. okay, except the fact that i had to spend my afternoon alone, its not that bad.
talking bout Valentines Day,
Is it really just a day when your boyfriend treats you exceptionally good? Aren't they suppose to treat you best every second?

Au Revoir! :)

MROLDMAN

2011-02-12T19:52:00.001+08:00

Attribute to MROLDMAN!
The guy i cursed and swear for the past 24 hours!
Who gave so much comments on my presentation when i have yet to complete it.
Can't he just wait till the presentation ended and come to us and let us know what he think of the presentation on overall?
And seriously, MIND YOU! I'M NOT THE ONE WHO DID THE POWERPOINT SLIDES.
WHY DO YOU HHAVE TO KEEP LOOKING AT ME AND START TELLING ME ALL THOSE THINGS THAT HAS TO BE CORRECTED?
"Oh, the words are too difficult for the primary school prefects to understand."
(WHY ARE YOU TELLING ME THIS?! LIKE SERIOUSLY! )
"NEED MORE PICTURES! TOLD YOU TO GET THE SLIDES FROM ME. I HAVE ALL THE PICTURES AND THEY HAVE BEEN USED BEFORE. "
(I AM NOT THE ONE WHO DID THE SLIDES!!!!!!!! )

tsk. i got so angry i started drawing nonsense.
SO DEAR MROLDMAN! THIS IS FOR YOU!

~~hope you loose all your hair.~~

random anxiety to make a post

2011-01-10T02:12:00.000+08:00

I THINK I'M FRIGGIN MAD!
Its 2am in the morning. Completed my EL situational writing, blog-hopped while waiting for Andrea's work to print. and here i am, inspired to blog at this lonely space.

First week of school is screwed! it turned better only when weekends arrived. Met up with Kangaroo<3 on Saturday. Didn't manage to study much. but we walked a lot! from whitesand to park and walked back. My legs were sore! but it was fun! hope this week will be a better week.

ANYWAY, main point of this post, BUILD A BETTER BAND!
I FRIGGIN GONNA SACRIFICE FOR BAND! i know many of you may think i'm stupid etc etc.
like... you're sec 4! stop worrying about band, start studying. i am ! i friggin am studying! so people stop asking me why i didn't study! i'll friggin give you a heart attack! these 4 words, "WHY DIDN'T YOU STUDY?!" keeps ringing in my mind ya know ya know ya know?!
but i keep telling myself, find ways to improve band. need to make band a better place, let it the band members feel home. because i know i want none of my juniors to dread coming band. because its my second home! i want people to feel welcomed! since you have to spend your time to be in a place i think is pleasant and nice, i want you to be able to feel what i feel too! it'll be selfish if youu can't. SYF is not the same like it was before. Its so different. I wanna make things different! i'm gonna make a change. i'm going against all odds. although its a bit late. but i'm not afraid to start now!

GOODNIGHT PEOPLE! I HAVE TO SLEEP!
I LOVE BAND!!!!

Script de post: "School isn't my second home, band is" - YeoKengTeng <3

HAPPY 2011!

2010-12-31T22:08:00.002+08:00

YAY! ITS GONNA BE A NEW YEAR!
ITS GONNA BE 2011! AND NOT A SINGLE HOMEWORK IS DONE! YAY!!!!!
and i lost my calculator! YAYY!!!!!

Really hope next year is gonna be a much better year.
Just gonna close my eyes and wake up feeling like i'm someone else.
Last year in ChongBoon, having O levels. :/
Stressed manszx!

But still, HAPPY 2011! HOPE YOUR WISHES COME TRUE!

Script de post: one of my past wishes came true :)

Vampire Diaries

2010-12-07T12:45:00.000+08:00

Didn't have much of the mood to blog.
Too much on goings ever since i've been back from China.
probably do my update on my trip some time next week.

Currently stuck in this crazy drama, Vampire Diaries.
Its great. (sorry i really don't have the mood to elaborate how good it is. kinda having a screwed mood now.)

Did a little thinking. I may be closing this space down next year.
seriously, whats up with the blog? It like seeking attention.
But it seems like no one it actually interested in this space. So even if i were to close, nobody would even realise. (okay, never mind my ramblings. my mind is just... nvm)

I'm invisible once again. Maybe it should be... as always.
AU REVOIR!

GOING FOR HOLIDAY!

2010-11-17T02:50:00.000+08:00

(i even told you the company of plane i'm taking. -.-)

Hey people! i'm going overseas tomorrow.
To be exact, today, midnight.

I'M GOING CHINA, HAINAN ISLAND!
Go see scenery! Haha! not that bad la. leave the urban world for a while, relief myself from the stress and pressurizing world ;)
I WILL TAKE HELL LOT OF PHOTOS BACK FOR YOU ALL TO SEE! :D
5days! Will i be able to leave without any sms for 5 whole days?!
Will definitely miss the time when i type away on my phone like nobody's business.
Knowing i'm those kind of person who can get msges at any time of the day, my phone is 24/7 next to me. some times, i might even hallucinate an incoming msg. -.-

Its kinda hard to leave. so many activities will be going on while i'm away. gonna miss out a lot manzsx! So many things seem to be undone. Leaving for holiday makes me feel rather irresponsible for not completing my work.

I will miss the clean and rather hygienic Singapore.
I will miss my bed & blanket.
I will miss my plushies.
I will miss sleeping and waking up to music.
I will miss sms-ing.

script de post: i'm hungry and i feel like eating fishball mee-tai-mak now @2.26am!(maggie is fine too)

AU REVOIR! SEE YOU PEOPLE WHEN I'M BACK! ;)

36th NCO POP

2010-11-14T20:24:00.002+08:00

WARNING! you have to see my ugly face in this post.

12 NOVEMEBER 2010! one of the best days in 2010!

Except the fact that...
1 > i had to wake up early in to go to school for 3EX programme
2 > my phone died on me at night
3 > I had to carry hell lot of stuff to NCO POP

HAHA! OKAY! WHY WAS IT A GREAT DAY?!
BECAUSE...
1 > Theres band practice!
2 > 36TH NCO POP!
3 > DINNER @CHOMP CHOMP!

Band was quite good that day. ran rather smoothly.
Had full band and a couple of breaks in between. Took note of those points Fredy picked out on thursday's sectionals. Yea, i still need much more practice. can't muffle the bloodeh timpani on time. when the song passes part J, i like totally cannot catch anything.
VIGIKOH NEEDS MROE PRACTICE MANZSXZSX!
HAHA! EARLY RELEASE! FOR THOSE WHO ARE GOING FOR NCO POP!
OH DAMN! i forgot to ask band if they want to send instruments for repair. never mind. shall ask on tuesday.

AFTER BAND!
many sec 3s chionged to keep their instruments , pack their stuff and change!
Some hiao hiao people like me would like to go to our BIG BIG MIRROR AND TIE HAIR! (HAHAHAHAHA!)
i chiong to keep things, help people sign out instrument, keep instrument, keep stand, keep score, pack percussion area. (WASEH! MAD CHIONG! )
haha! i don't know how i got time to hiao in front of mirror!
some of the sec 3s gathered with Mr Wong at foyer to go.
BUT I....
Rush outta school to meet ANGIE CHEW! haha!
We went to J8 and got some food. Saw a number of sec 4s. THEY'RE GOING TO NCO POP TOO!
When we made our way to bus stop to take bus down, Mr Wong and the rest were there too. HAHA!
Cool right? (no? whatever la!) LOL! Long bus ride on 156. Disturbed Addison otw there. (Y)

FINALY! @Co-curriculum Activity Branch (CCAB)! they were about to start!
AS EXPECTED! no seats at all. so we sat on the floor lo.
people like me who are slightly different and smaller in size can't see much things! (like dammit right?) + ALL THOSE STUPID PLANTS! PUT THERE FOR WHAT?! OBSTRUCT MY VIEW ONLY!
Anyway, took lots of photos! many were really random ones. got scandal pictures also :P
Marching out marching in! WOO! CLARENCE YOUR MARCHING IMPROVED MANSZX!
Great performance put up by Band majors and Drum majors!
Then there was the putting of badges. caught a great picture of clarence and his mum. Damn sweet ah(confirm, guarantee + chop!). Its on my facebook if you wanna see ;)

saw JOEY YAP! KORINA, LING YI and one more Zhonghua primary girl from 6E(dont know wth her name is but can remember her looks :) )!

Performance over! TIME TO CAMWHORE!

We all took turns to take picture with the 2 majors! They were 'Stars' for that moment! (HAHA)

Damn happy to see JOEY YAP! WE ALL MISS HER LIKE MAD LA! miss the time she was in ChongBoonBand. High until nobody's business. Those times we had in HongKong. I remember you were SICK! But we still had fun! :D

THERE WAS LING YI! i haven't seen her for almost 2 years since i left MVTC!
i remember having lots of fun with her at the back of Math class.

OH-MMM-GEE! KORINAAAAAAA!!!!! - hehe! we have a dirty little secret!- so cool right?
LOVE YOU GIRL!!!!! HAVENT SEEN YOU FOR A YEAR!(actually not really. i went for her concert this year. HAHA! ) We met in Campteen(its like a racial harmony camp).
haha! thinking of all the fun we had! ITS WAS WAY BEYOND AWESOME! The fact that you're from band left me a deep impression of you. ;) I remember you acting like a mad woman in the bunk! HAHA! DAMN FUNNEH!

END OF CAMWHORE! OFF FOR DINNER AT CHOMPCHOMP!
Haha! FEAST MANZSX! SUGAR CANE + STING RAY + CHICKEN WINGS + SATAY!
Okay, not really a feast. but it was a great dinner! Hahaha!
had dinner with Angie, Keng Teng and Lee xean. WEE! it was great wasn't it? Eat until full full then walk to bus stop which was far far away.

HAHA! FRUITFUL DAY = HAPPYGIRL456!
(only if my phone was working, i could share my joy with all of you through twitter. too bad eh?)

OH YA! For those who don't know what the hell is POP, it is actually passing out parade :)

script de post: I'M DEFINITELY GOING FOR 37TH NCO POP! WHOSE WITH ME?!
: The sky that day was beautiful. (Did you see what i see?)

LETTERS TO GOD

2010-11-07T19:02:00.002+08:00

'LETTERS TO GOD!' ITS A MUST WATCH MOVIE!

Its inspired from a true story about a boy named Tyler. Guess what, if he is still living now, he'll be as old as i am.
He contracted cancer at a young age. but he kept positive. He believed in god, he believed that god will help him and read his letters. It was even tougher for him as his Dad just passed away not long ago and he is only a young boy! He wrote letters to god and posted them. Due to his illness, many attention was needed which caused his brother to be kinda 'jealous'(i guess).
The mail man picked it up from the mailbox and kept it but didn't read it until the very end. Which made him realise how what Tyler was thinking , how positive he was even though he was a sick and weak child fighting the ruthless cancer alone. Tyler has a really good friend name Sam(short for Samantha), she was there to defend him, to play with him. Tyler made many more people realise what they wanted, he made people believe in god. Most importantly, he changed people and made them learn things.
Its really a great movie! I'm definitely gonna watch it again!

If i have a chance, i would really want to help people like Tyler.
As most of you know, i'm really not those kinda person who believes in god. However after watching this movie, i thought... 'Hey, its actually really not that bad to believe in something :)'

thats all for today, au revior!

FUCK SPA!

2010-11-03T23:14:00.001+08:00

yea, fuck SPA manzsxzxs.
Physics SPA on monday. and i don't even know how to do a shit!
NB

溫嵐-傻瓜MV

2010-11-03T21:29:00.000+08:00

这首歌带回不少回忆。

SYF'11 piece

2010-10-28T22:12:00.002+08:00

Percussion!!!

Playing the bird song , Der Volgehandler, for SYF next year.
Got this piece last week :/
When i first heard this song, honestly, i didn't really like it. In fact find it quite stupid.
Until i played this in band! Maybe its me or something.
Playing music with band and especially my section really makes the music different. it gives you a different feeling!!!!!! a very unique kind of meaning too!
LOL! i think i'm mad la.

Had sectionals with Fredy recently.
Section has been putting effort to make their music better to prove to Fredy that they can do it. Damn effing happy la!
I think i'm falling deeper in love with my section. (HAHA)
I came out with some plans for percussion the other night while i was bathing!(oops! :P)
Hope it'll work out well and probably be a success.

WE MUST SHOW PEOPLE THAT CHONGBOON BAND CAN DO IT! SHOW THAT 西瓜 THAT WE CAN SUCCEED TOO!
PERCUSSION JIAYOU!
WE CAN DO IT!

ps: gaining back my passion for band. &lovin it! ;P

Readers

2010-10-21T23:47:00.000+08:00

OMG! Recently, the number of anonymous readers are increasing!
I can't check who they are!!! Neither through blogger stats nor nuffnang!!!
Readers, would you please leave a tag when you read my blog? because i'd love to know whose been reading my blog.

I mean like... who doesn't want to know whose been reading their blog, right? (HAHA)