Nuisance

maybe, thats like one of my weakness/badpoint
 i dont know why, but i think im a total nuisance.
 it just comes naturally to me when i trust someone or when i want to escape from something.
 i've been making a lot of noise recently &have been being super annoying.  idk whats wrong with me and why im ding this. but im just doing it(wtf? ikr.)
 yes, and now i have the habit of going out every single day. i just... dont want to stay home. so, its either im alone outside or i'll just run out and look for people.
idk how to explain this, but the way i look for people is not normal.
the way i see it, i think i've been a total nuisance.

 i swear i feel frigging lost now. like i have no where to go and idk what to do. besides that, the thought of me getting my Olevel results in January is freaking me out.
 i feel like an idiot now because i know my results will not turn out to be what i expected it to be. effing disappointed in myself. (now, i feel more lost than ever. where would i go if i do not get into Aviation?)
i dont even clearly know where the fuck i want to go!
engineering? i dont even know whether im up for it.
Business is boring & super competitive.
Science? i think i'll die.
IT? not very interested.
still got what?          (-.-) idk la! i only know im damn screwed.
i hope i wont have to get back my results ever! (dream on!)

there's a risk im taking tomorrow. i seriously dont know what will happen, i guess i'll just gamble with my fate&future.
hopefully, it won't be bad. (fuck! am i even doing the right thing? im damn confused.)
but aiya, fuck it la. im just gonna go. if i dont go, LMN will just keep pressuring me.
anyway, i doubt anyone will fly down to help me tomorrow if something happens to me (because i've been really mean recently. &im turning into a total bitch).
ohwell~


Au Revoir
(désolé for the messy post.)